Recent content by ekane

@Sighs I wish I understood better... I don't understand why he expects or wants you involved whatsoever in his choice. Why he wants you to grab a saddle and get a vehicle etc... When you have stated that you didn't agree with the assessment and choice of action in response to hearing shots. He...

No it does not look any different! Her dementia is not an excuse. Your fear of her eventual death is not an excuse. Her only being part of your PTSD history is not an excuse! Her being a lackluster mother but still a "good" person is not an excuse! How many excuses are you willing to pile on so...

Hi Sabrina, welcome! Thank you for sharing your story. It's a shame what has happened to the "health"care industry. My best friend is a doctor and has had many similar experiences. Anyway, you are in the right place.

Go to dreammoods.com and look everything up. Its a dream dictionary.you can type in stuff like "game, hero, video game, character, sword, weapon, nighttime, " etc etc. Colors, clothing, body parts, buildings and rooms, animals.... All of it can be looked up. You can piece together the meaning of...

This situation is highly inappropriate! Why are you doing any thing with your mother at all right now when your PTSD triggers are as they are??? Who the heck made you do this? No decent professional would support would having a person with raging PTSD be forced to be around their abusers. They...

You should do the Skype sessions. You are putting yourself back into the world of abusers who will be a trigger whether or not they behave as they did in the past.

I'm so glad my suggestion helped! I have done Emdr at an irregular schedule actually. Some times weekly, biweekly, or even monthly (when I first started I needed more time to cope with what my brain was suddenly processing). I do a lot of art therapy because I'm a natural born artist. Talk...

I think lonliness may be the deepest pain on earth. I felt like you for years... All my life really. I only recently noticed that I have not felt lonely for several months... It finally faded away without me noticing. It was counterintuitive - I believe often the way to overcome lonliness is to...

I'm sorry you're dealing with that every day! I would venture to say that a significant fraction if PTSD sufferers have had the same issue for chunks of time, but it can and will improve over time with therapy, self-help, and lots of trial-and-error.

Easier said than done, but with practice you can do it -- I would suggest detaching yourself emotionally during these moments so as not to pay any energy or feed into his dramatics. You might actually be validating his drama by accident, by adding more adrenaline and cortisol into the equation...

@comawhite just a side note -- never take a psychiatrists comments at face value. Same for any doctor. The more meds you try the more you realize doctors are lying. Do tons of research yourself before taking anything they prescribe. I could go into detail about the complexities of the falsified...

Im the same way. I keep a portable heater next to me all the time. I turn it on several times a day to feel safer and prevent anxiety or flashbacks from getting out of control. If my anxiety is super high, I have to take a hot bath.

His behavior crosses the line and goes beyond what can be excused by PTSD. The real truth is that by the time he changes this particular list of toxic behaviors, IF ever, you will have zero self-esteem left by then and will be even worse off than now. He is not relationship material. Its the...

Very interesting... I have an idea: Put a question mark next to memories for which you are unable to rate 0-10. Before doing emdr on those memories, do talk therapy or other methods specifically to get in tough with your TRUE level of emotions about those enents. Then do EMDR on those once...

What a bad day your having! I would say now that multiple high-stress events have piled up, it has exhausted your energy/mental space resevoir. A person can only take so much over a matter of a day or two. And clearly it triggered several issues. Your reaction doesn't sound too much delayed...