Recent content by Ellabella44

When you point out how you don't feel you handled a situation well and your therapist says that's because your extensive trauma made you feel this situation was a threat.

My son graduates tonight. He's my youngest. No more teacher meetings and trying to get him to do summer homework!

Stability.

When you want to stay in your room with the curtains drawn holding a stuffed animal not because you are depressed, but because it makes you feel safe.

Woke up at 2 with sinus headache. Of course couldn't get to sleep and started questioning if we should put a spare mattress in my home office in case one of us (husband or I) need to self quarantine. We don't have a guest bedroom and my son has claimed the basement as his second home. I had not...

Hugs to everyone having a bad time. To those having met milestones etc. Proud of you. So tonight what's on my mind is hoping things get better for everyone.

@Deanna yes I went to two different ones each week before this mess started. Now I only see one of them on zoom. I haven't heard from my sponsor much. Should probably call her, but she isn't used to being home as I am. I know I would still be having problems with staying away from it since its...

My insecurities have been loud lately. End up ruminating on the bad side of things. I'm going up on my med for bipolar. But still worry someday that I'd end up taking a psychiatric "vacation" because somehow I've gotten out of control. And I've found some new ptsd triggers. For example my...

Better things

Welcome

Today my female co worker chirped and had the cookies. Thankfully while I was awake.

@Muttly eww. And your co workers are weird. My neighbor said she saw my male co worker streaking down the street.

My male co worker is harassing my female co worker because its spring, when he believes he is natures gift to all the girls. She hissed at him, reported his behavior to hr (myself and my daughter) and now he is in a cubicle all by himself.

Hugs to all especially those having a hard time. My grandmother died today of cancer. My cousin called me. Since I went no contact with my mother and step father, I thought his brothers family and grandma would hate me and reject me like my step sisters did. She said I was missed by them all...

My friends in Italy are on day 38 of quarantine. A hospital in my area has just put out a call for home made masks and has sent out a preferred pattern. My daughter and I are trying to consider our options on if we have enough materials readily available to make some. If anyone sews you can...