Recent content by Emily18

I'm sorry, it doesn't sound like your family is supporting you at all. You should put your needs and recovery first though. Your family only has so much influence on you and they can only exert that control for so long. It will stop eventually, but the recovery process doesn't need to. Your...

I've noticed that, no matter what/who it is, I tend to get attached only to withdraw briefly, then repeat. When I withdraw, it feels like everything shuts down, including my emotions. I know this isn't fair to my friends and family but I don't know how to fix it. Does anyone else experience...

Sorry for multiple replies but the topic is important to me. In my own family, I've experience "victim blaming" and statements like "what if you had done this...." or "I don't understand how you let that happen". I've also experienced it with people who were my friends. Not only is this...

Today I went out by myself to the bookstore and get some sushi. I do this often and I have always found it relaxing and freeing. Not this time. I felt as if I was on the verge of a panic attack the entire time and I am now sore from muscle tension. I feel safe now but I absolutely did not...

Thank you for this post and those words especially. The video was definitely very interesting and brought up topics that really should have more exposure in society. It was kind of shocking to me to hear other people "defend" the fact that we can't teach people not to rape. I'm all for...

I'm sorry you are going through so much right now. Many people with PTSD, myself included, tend to eventually withdraw or push away the people in their lives. This is harmful to both parties as the sufferer loses support and the other person is often confused and frustrated. It is great that...

@shimmerz I have a abnormally low body temperature compared to most people, I tend to run about 2-3 degrees under the norm. I don't know if this is related to trauma or stress but I would assume that is why I'm always very cold. I definitely use the shower to warm up when I'm cold. I know that...

To reflect on Christmas, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. There was only one time when I began to separate myself from reality after my cousin was talking about rape but I managed to ground myself and walk away from the triggering conversation. I also managed to get some sleep which...

@Crimson Thank you :) I'm not offended at all. I am almost 100% positive that I don't do it to inflict harm on myself or to get a rush. It isn't very painful, in truth. I get the same comfort from laying out in the sun until I get a sunburn as well. Maybe it's because I'm usually very cold? Or...

So, I was wondering if anyone else uses extreme shower temperatures. I use really hot water to the point where I feel as if I have a sunburn when I get out. I don't do it to inflict pain but I find the heat comforting and cleansing. It also is rather grounding for me. One of the showers I use...

This happens to me a lot, sometimes its all sounds that go away or just a singular one that remains. It also happens with my vision, I like to describe it as tunnel vision. It looks like blackness is slowly fading in from the sides and I stop being able to focus completely. I never thought of...

Hugs or kind smiles (whichever you prefer) being sent your way! We can help support you here and there are many resources like hotlines, therapists and, of course, hospitals that will help you continue with your healing process. As others said, we are here for you and we are willing to listen. :)

I have very few memories of my childhood (before the age of 12) as well and the ones I do have are more like a faded image. Much like the memory you described, I have one very clear memory of a quarry but I have no idea where it is or why I remember it. I understand your feeling of frustration...

I have a very close friend that supports me. While she is a rather new person in my life we connected instantly and I am very grateful to have her. Having support has definitely helped me work through symptoms and also stay grounded at times. She is incredibly understanding and always encourages...

I was a minor at the time, however, she reviewed the rules with me before the beginning session and I had a print-out of the confidentiality agreement. They were both definitely broken. Thank you though for your assurances and support. :)