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@jd9900, thank you so much for your words :joyful: I definitely relate to you because I always feel like things are mostly out of my control, especially with my mother. She always finds a way to destroy me no matter how hard I try to prevent it... Would you care to talk about what you're going...

Hey, I just kinda need to vent right now. I hope you guys don't mind! My mother is effing psychotic. It drives me crazy... and scares me. - This morning had to take my kitten, Oliver, to the vet. All day yesterday she was setting things up for a fight. Just little comments here and there. I...

I am so glad you said this :) I do value all of you and your thoughts.

Thank you all so much for your help! I really appreciate all of your ideas. They helped me to realize that I had actually done a few of those things and didn't realize it! My list is as follows: 1. Took my sister shopping 2. Bought my first ebook and read it. 3. Took a shower at the gym. 4...

So my therapist gave me homework, and I have to come up with five ways to make myself happy that I have never tried before. I have to actually do three of them... I've got nothing. Our session is tomorrow! I'm kind of freaking out. I really, really don't want to disappoint him. I've tried...

So many difficult questions, The Albatross... I don't treat myself the same way I would a friend or family member. If it was anyone else I would suggest all kinds of things and try to get them help, but I just can't do that for myself. As for why I am drawn to this kind of life, it's probably...

This really struck me as important. I have found that I do only want the drama until there are consequences. Several months ago my first therapist had pushed me into seeing a doctor and getting on medication. I felt so much better on the medication, but a couple of weeks in the pills stopped...

What is "The Albatross"?

@Ms Spock, Thank you. I shall try...

@Promicarus, Thank you :) You really ran with this topic, and I appreciate all that you have said. I even printed out your first comment to keep for myself. You're awesome!

@Ms Spock, you made me cry witht this question. I really don't do anything to reassure my kid part as it is. I really hate who I am, and I've been told far too many times that I'm too hard on myself. I really don't even know where to begin to show the child side of me that I care. Do you have...

Now that you mention it, I do think that my therapist lacks the necessary skills... I have been this way for as long as I can remember. Most of my issues began at the age of four and I'm 20 now. @Ms Spock, what influence do you think this has?

@Kas_Can_Fly Thank you for putting words to my thoughts! I definitely fear the "better" things. I'm terrified of being betrayed or losing someone who supposedly loves me.

@BlackbirdSinging YES! I so so so so relate!