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Thanks guys, I'm glad I'm not on my own with this, but I'm sorry you all struggle with this stuff/similar things.

Okay, so whilst I know that I can't get diagnosed by anybody on here, but I just want to know if these symptoms are similar to anything anyone else has gone through. I want to feel less alone, I guess. Okay, so, I was sexually abused as a child between the ages of I *think* 4-6 years old by my...

Thank you :)

3 or 4 years old for me. My earliest memory of being "floating above myself"/being separate from my body was running across a road, still haven't figured out why I was running.

Yeah, they make me dissociate because of the sensory overload/anxiety and I cannot handle the male attention, I tend to avoid those places.

I'm the exact same. Usually wake up paralysed with fear.

@Namenotdiagnosis I'm so sorry about the abuse you went through, and how long it went on, you're a true fighter. Never forget that, ok? And thank you for the welcome. :) @ghotiff Thank you, I'm not sure what I'm going to do after I do see my GP, I will need to have something planned...Hm...

@Santa_Laurie Thank you. Hugs are definitely welcome! I wish I knew how to do that icon...lol. @Lolly Haha, it's totally fine! And thanks, I'll have a look at that too. Ah, I never knew there were so many options?? I feel a lot better knowing I have options. Less trapped. Thank you. <3...

@anthony Hmm, I guess I don't have to tell my mum, yet. I could tell her at a time when I feel, uh...Can't think of the word. Safer? Like, trusting in her more (I have major trust issues, which I guess is sort of a given). Thank you so much. @Lolly Yeah, it's just...odd. Like you know that...

@anthony I feel like if I don't tell them that he's "gotten away with it", but I don't want them to know because of the anxiety surrounding them rejecting me. I don't know...I hope not. It's just paranoia. I think I'll definitely ask for some help at some point in the next few weeks, I don't...

@anthony Exactly. I don't know I feel weak? Like admitting to being abused makes me feel weak. Don't know why though. I also think that because I blame myself I can prevent things from happening in the future, too? It's like a barrier to keep myself safe, I guess. I think you're right on the...

@anthony True, I do have vague memories of him trying to get me into trouble, I guess I just believed him...I mean, why wouldn't I? And you're right, it's hard to change a thought process like appointing blame to the correct person. Both really. It started when I was roughly 4 years old, my...

@Lolly Thank you. Yeah, my friends have offered to come with me - they're all just busy I guess, I don't want to feel like a burden on them, so I don't want to ask again. Also, I know it seems silly, but I'm scared that the stuff with my brother will some how get back to my parents - they...

Thanks for the welcome, guys! @anthony I know logically he is in the wrong, but I still blame myself? I wish I knew how to feel like it wasn't my fault. I think it's what prevented me from telling my mum about what he was doing, but I'm not sure. :(

Hi, I'm guessing it's pretty obvious I'm new here. I'm 20 years old, I live in the UK. I'm not currently diagnosed with PTSD, although I think I may have it... I also study Psychology at university. Growing up I was sexually, physically and emotionally abused by my brother (only my two closest...