Recent content by foolscapfire

I try to fight it, but it's exhausting. I feel victimized by it a lot...as if it is the boss and I can't defy it.

I'm sorry, I don't have any advice. However, I relate 100%. The battle is exhausting. There is little joy. Just a grind to survive.

I believe that it is a result of the inner-critic. The inner-critic is the internalization of the people who abused you. I totally agree that we internalize that voice so that we feel that pain rather than the pain of rejection and abuse from outside sources. It's a survival mechanism that turns...

Thank You, everyone, for your support and understanding. The paranoia is the worst. I hate it because I know the thoughts and fears are irrational and baseless, but they tend to run me anyway. I am in EMDR therapy and doing Acupuncture for the anxiety and depression. I was just diagnosed with...

I am almost always terrified. I go to bed afraid to fall asleep. I have insomnia and when I do fall asleep I wake up in terror. I don't want to get up in the morning but lay there in fear and anxiety of what the day will bring so I end up getting up anyway, and doing my day. I go through my day...