Recent content by ForagingChef

Yup! No reaction when I accidentally took the end of my finger and fully half the nail off with a knife.

I am a 42 year old chef with complex PTSD from an emotionally and psychologically abusive relationship. Travel has always been something that I have loved to do. I've lived in a lot of places, most recently spent a few years in Central America with my wife (abuser) and our son. Nineteen months...

Datura was a VERY dark time, still with my abuser. My eyesight was shit for three days, by the fourth it came back to the point I could read text on a page. I agree that the side effects are horrific and that there is no therapeutic value. The trip itself was pretty spectacular but offered...

@Santa_Laurie :hug: ALWAYS appreciated. Expressing need for affection, especially a hug, is one of my biggest challenges. There is nothing I need more in this world than a freely given hug. Thanks.

I know that there is still a long way to go, but looking back I've already come so far. Today likely will not be the day that I find a job or solve the bigger problems I perceive in my life, that's ok. I have hope. I am happy that I woke up this morning and that is a huge win. Each new day is...

Trying is a win in itself, a huge win.

I put self employed. The only way I can work is if I am doing something that I love. For me this has meant cooking. Until 2008 I was an executive chef, not something I feel up to doing again. It was a struggle but I changed my career working instead as a private chef. I started cooking again a...

Sorry, not the intention. Curious to know others with similar views. Not sure if it will lead anywhere. Not ready to do anything but hope to at some point.

San Pedro is on my bucket list, as are LSD and mushrooms. Those are three that I've read positive things about for treating PTSD. My first psychedelic experience was in mid 2012, Datura Brugmansia (Angel Trumpets). Every part of the tree is toxic, side effects include things like blindness and...

I am completely open about my PTSD diagnosis, not hidden from anyone. There was no trying to appear normal when I got away from my situation. My whole existence has focused on getting better, not treating symptoms. Pharmaceuticals have played a very small role in my recovery, only at he very...

I've been diagnosed with complex PTSD from an abusive relationship that lasted for 13 years. My faith in pharmaceuticals is not strong, fortunately my first therapist was able to introduce me to ayahuasca. All told I have been to fifteen ayahuasca ceremonies since December of 2012. The typical...