Recent content by Ginja

@Ragdoll Circus I really am in the confused boat. I really want to believe that I want to know, but the things I've read I truly am terrified. And to be in your boat of still having new memories when you just want to be done. It scares me so much that I don't have what it takes to process and...

@Muse I've been angry with my mom for the past 3 years. It was only this past Tuesday that I remember led the memories that I posted. Or do you mean unknowingly I was angry at her for not protecting me? Yeah I talked to my girlfriend this morning about her attendance. She said the first couple...

I have a question for everybody. When your first memories started coming back, if it was something that you didn't remember when growing up, did you become obsessed with them? I am constantly reading stories and looking up different things about certain behavior, and what causes what? And I've...

He is and he does, its just I know he has to side with my mom because that's his wife and they have to stick together. The last time we talked was about a month ago and I told him what my mom said to me and that it was the main reason I wasn't talking to her. He didn't say much except that he...

@Gadgie exactly, reading what so many others have gone through on this site just made it easier because there are definitely people that have been through worse than me. And it was that, that made it easier to handle writing my story so far. The feeling of getting judged wasn't so strong, and...

I also just want to say thank you to everyone who has replied. I've never been big on talking, and the idea of talking in an environment such as this just seemed ridiculous to me. But now after talking just a little bit to you guys it really does help. And knowing that you all have been through...

@Mal Content Her support is, she has put up with so much from my family and me that I honestly don't know how I still have her. She's always seen the good in me. We've had our days but in the end her love and support have been more than I could ever ask for. I am in the process of cutting them...

Also last night I told my girlfriend about the dog, she only knew about the two boys. I was thinking about it all day at work and almost cried 3 times on the way to work and around 6-7 while at work. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I told her how bad I feel about all this and that even if nothing...

@Mal Content The thing is my life was very sheltered( outside of those things). I thought I had a happy life. My parents didn't fight, I got along with my oldest sister, and I didn't fight very often with my middle sister. It wasn't until my nephews dad passed away that my bubble "popped"(He has...

Yeah, I understand. And I would but there have been too many things come up in our relationship. And I really don't see myself just getting over the feeing I have, and the biggest thing. I really don't want to go through this alone. Especially after our sessions now. She may have to drive home...

Thank you for replying Joey. Yeah you could say that. I'm not very open to begin with, but nothing has been on my mind like this before. And after reading what others have been through it was alittle easier to actually get myself to say all of that. Well my girlfriend will be present for all...

I am new and stumbled upon this site while doing some research and it seems to be the best place for my curious. I am very shy and closed off about personal sexual things. I can make jokes about anything outside of me but as soon as it's about me personally, I shut down. My girlfriend and I...