Recent content by gorgonzola

Queen - Who wants to live forever?

That's me as well. Raising the hypothetical possibility of remembering the trauma is so dysregulating. Intrusive memories are my worst symptom.

Nervous.

Bothered. Extremely bothered.

Nothing to apologise for, @Movingforward10. I prefer "having a discontinuity", maybe. I was a bit of a shutterbug at the time and almost all of my memory from around the time has been edited out according to my photographic record, I think by accident though I'm not sure. Now go enjoy your...

I do like the filtering ability. One question though: by any chance is there a good way of filtering out those "this thread has been closed due to inactivity these past 12 months" threads that pop up several times a day?

I didn't survive it though. I am not the original gorgonzola.

My flashbacks can last just a few seconds and put me out for a week or more. I'm really fuzzy on the emotional memory of the original trauma, but going by how far I know I went to escape the inescapable it must have been pretty bad. Main problem is that I know the original lasted continuously...

Other people's experiences of flashbacks vs the original event being flashed back to.

I am seeking to establish how much my emotional memories have been edited, so if the answer to the title question is anything but "worse" then the answer to my underlying question is "a great deal".

My therapist suggested exposure therapy for my hypervigilance. Whether it's that or the antipsychotic I've been on for large chunks of the time, after a year I've noticed some improvement. Are you seeing a therapist?

You might want to look up the fearful-avoidant/disorganized attachment style.

The avoidance bit certainly defines me in part. Flashbacks I wouldn't mind dispensing with, but avoiding specific things is a thing-that-gorgonzola-does. I don't identify though with the survival thing that the article mentions in multiple places.

I gave this a glance and I'm appalled by their lack of proofreading, e.g. "The medieval warm period (950-1200) was following by colder and warmer periods." Learned a new bit of antipodean slang: "rorting". Rorting. Rorting.