Recent content by Gunsmith

My apologies in advance if this is the inappropriate forum- not quite sure where it falls and had to share/ blow steam. May 11, 2010 one of my best friends- Marine Sgt Kennith May Jr was killed in action in Helmand province Afghanistan. It was his wedding anniversary. He was a goofy...

Semper Fi fellow Gunner! Jim here, 0331/0369 from 3/1 Weapons. Dude you have no idea how common your symptoms are. Hell I didn't really start having issues until three years after my last combat pump. You'd be suprised what some triggers are- doesn't have to be a car backfire. Honestly my...

Anything I can jump into with both feet- I have to give myself a goal or mission. I like to hand load ammunition because it requires focus, concentration, and constant monitoring. I find an hour or two of extreme attention to detail makes me feel worlds better.

Words of wisdom! Thanks Brother. I have a plan and am financially stable. My issue is I don't know how to be anything else. I grew up preparing for a career in the military and spent over half my life in uniform. The idea if being "normal" and simply punching a clock to earn a paycheck is...

Hey all! It's been a long time and a wild ride! Update- I eat pills like candy, suffer nightmares where I didn't before and have gained 15 lbs... But haven't lost my temper in weeks. I've continued weekly one on one sessions and as painful as it is progress is being made. Haven't...

I'm receiving a combination of drugs and cognitive processing therapy. Sessions basically consist of logic and reasoning exercises to help the thinking part of the brain to overcome the feeling part of the brain. Per the therapy symptoms stem from maladaptive or problematic ideas or "stuck...

Thank you for all the support everyone! I've been mia for a while so I thought I would check back in. I'm currently receiving excellent therapy in the form of a case study- New methods geared specifically for combat related Ptsd. My outbursts are less, my anger is fading and everyone around me...

I know it's a great program and it helps lots of vets, but at the same time I kinda feel like I'm being committed, at least in the professional sense. All I can do is keep an open mind and accept the help offered right? Thanks guys and Happy Thanksgiving to everyone

Looks like they're going to pcs me to the wounded warrior battalion. I don't know how to feel about that...

I really like that analogy too. Wish me luck today.

I've mentioned previously I build rifles, load my own ammo and play Xbox. All three activities require concentration and provide relief. However two are expensive and I don't really have time for any of them. My job eats up so much time I don't have enough for my family let alone myself

Once I was an avid martial artist and cross country runner. In the Marines they give big guys like me the machine guns because we can pack more ammo. I received a significant lower back injury from getting tossed by rocket explosions. I'm not allowed to lift, it hurts to run, and my physical...

I know everyone is effected differently. I guess I'm looking for validation as my recent behavior has been atrocious. I have bouts of barely controlled rage with increasing frequency. I don't think I had any when I returned home for the last time, but now it's almost daily. I've been asked...

My wife is holding strong, but I'm about to s**tcan my career right at the 18 year mark. I'm stuck on recruiting duty which exacerbates everything. I need to settle down before I put somebody's punk kid through a window

Thanks guys. I'm not quite sure what to do even. I just read other threads and realize how I'm feeling/acting is "normal" It eases the embarrassment I feel for even admitting to myself I have a problem