Recent content by HappyJock

On Tuesday, I'm starting an intensive six week program. I'm assuming it'll have different types of therapy, but I'll find out soon enough. I guess the problem I'm having is looking at the person in the mirror and recognizing him. I used to be fun. Fearless. Even in the face of danger. Two...

As some of you may know, I've been dealing with severe levels of dissociation and possibly DID as well. Thanks to a certain member that has consistently told me that I should consider inpatient treatment and that my levels of dissociation are serious, I took a good look at how much I needed help...

At the moment, I'm more lonely than I've felt in a long time and the situation confuses me. So much that at times, suicidal ideations give me the happiness and satisfaction that asking for help doesn't give me. After having so many bad therapists, I finally have a good one. The issue with this...

I find that therapists do that because they know you'll talk when you're ready. My therapist does this and it first it got to me. After a month, I realized I would just start talking sooner and ended up having to be more open and social and so she started being like that too. She still does it...

@ShamrockChalk, welcome! I hope you find the community helpful. I have the same exact sensations you're referring to, actually -- and I'm quite glad I'm not the only one who gets those sensations, so now I know I'm not alone. My abuser did lots of things to me at age 7 and one of those things...

That sounds quite scary, I'm sorry that you're having new flashbacks (but it's a good sign!). I've had experiences like that. I was in a happy and healthy place and I thought what I remembered was the last of it -- until it wasn't and I remember details I never wanted to be true, but ultimately...

It's definitely possible that the specific medications you're taking are making you feel worse or they are having fluctuating results. Are these medications relatively new? Is it possible that your body needs time to adjust? If anything, maybe tell your doctor this and maybe your doctor can give...

That's a tough thing to hear! I'm sorry for your friend and I'm sorry to hear that it's been on your mind a lot. Being the one in abuse situation as child, for me, it's a little different because I often get stuck in a specific year. I pull myself out of it by distracting myself from thinking...

He sounds amazing! Like others have said, not many therapists would admit their mistakes and he seems really genuine, wise and compassionate. He's a keeper!

Wow, that's one scary experience, I'm really sorry to hear that! I'm not 100% sure if it's related to Prazosin as being one of the side effects, but I know that with PTSD sometimes people experience sleep paralysis. I know I did for a while, actually -- and at first, I thought it was the...

I was SA at the age of 7 for six months while also being emotionally abused and drugged. I don't have a sex life, as any time someone is remotely intimate with me, I get triggered, dissociate and get defensive and angry. This probably answers the coping question, as it is how I cope -- so long...

I was diagnosed with did but i'm quite confused about the stage of DID. Generally I'm a self aware person. I can communicate my alters but they know they are alters. How is that possible? They tell me things like I created them and I need them or they are stronger than me and can handle more...

I have been diagnosed with PTSD among other things like D.I.D. It is nights like these that frighten me the most; it is ironic what I find frightening and I would just like to know how people cope and even help themselves understand that it isn't over. Reading back on threads I notice my level...

The cost of therapy can definitely be frightening. Fortunately, I have insurance -- but when I checked my portal on how much was being spent, it was roughly $400 a week on therapy.

@CaitMiller, thank you for sharing all of that, I know it could not have been easy! You've been through a lot, your resentment towards your mother is understandable. Employment and living a functional life is something that's very, very difficult but not impossible to maintain, with mental...