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Just realized my post is not well organized...

I don't know if I already said it but when I was younger, I was kind of bullied and really lonely. But I'm kinda weird because friends I made on the net are way nicer than people I see everyday. I couldn't tell my best friend about me being scared of loneliness, or suicidal thoughts , or...

@otakujome yes... Surely! I mean totally. I'll be just waiting for you a year before but well... Waiting for STUFF.

First, did anything happened before coming back from California? It may come from there... Like a hug that made you remember of something that you don't like and your brain associate this uncomfortable memory/feeling with the sensation of hugging.

I can't even think about what to write... I don't wanna sound stupid, or dependent, or whatever people think I sound when saying that but damn! I'm saying it. I know how it feels to have abusive parents... I've been beaten, threatened, insulted... I've been going to school hiding bruises on my...

@sun seeker . I meant empathetic not empathic. I don't know if there are two similar words in French that means empathetic and empathic. I just know empathetic.

@sun seeker @Kaia sorry for bad English :p my mother tongue is French and empathetic in French is "empathique" that's why I said emphatic and empathetic... Thank you for the correction now I'll use this word in a better way.

I wanted to apologize to @Solara @shimmerz @Sweetpea76 for my bad reactions to your advices. I educated myself about PTSD and I learnt a bit about how to be a good supporter. I now understand what you were trying to tell me. @Solara , yes we are codependent and we need to learn how to live as...

@Solara I didn't say that I was OK with him drinking. I know it's bad, and I would like him to not do it. But what I meant by making him feel bad is being harsh with him like that. I know that heavy drinking, or just drinking at 14 is very bad, even with high tolerance. And I think I can't make...

Reading his threads makes me understand more what he thinks because he is better at writing down his feeling than talking about it. It hurts me knowing that he is I'm such pain. It hurts that he doesn't have good parents or any kind of rest at all. Lately I manage to keep his mind busy, to not...

@Solara maybe I'm not a PTSD sufferer but for sure I have some fears that are kind of similar to some PTSD symptoms... This fear is something that haunts me almost everyday and this forum shows support, at least more than relatives @Kaia maybe after checking it would help me to talk. I don't...

I just stay on my phone before sleeping... I don't have habits... Of course I check my room every night but don't find anything and it's even more scary than finding, I guess...

@Solara no PTSD... Just troubles...

I had an awful night again. The fear got stronger at night. Home was quiet. I was alone and I felt them. The shadows were there. I managed to sleep before 11pm. I was scared as hell and was holding my teddy tight. But I didn't fell good at all. They were getting closer... Staring at me. I...

I am not giving up on him. I do get sad. But I think it's normal. I make him smile. I always try to do that. But I don't care if I have to suffer to make him better because I know I can deal with it easier than he does. I don't really know what you mean by "feel" him. But anxiety doesn't affect...