General Loneliness Scares Me

[Harley Quinn]

I don't know if I already said it but when I was younger, I was kind of bullied and really lonely.

But I'm kinda weird because friends I made on the net are way nicer than people I see everyday. I couldn't tell my best friend about me being scared of loneliness, or suicidal thoughts , or sadness because I know she would simply think I'm crazy or else. And she wouldn't understand. Otaku went sleeping before me and I'm stressed because I have no one to talk to. I like chatting with people and when I'm lonely I get stressed.

I'm not complaining or anything but being lonely is not funny at all especially when you're a kid and bullied. Remembering this makes a bit shaky. That's why I like to go sleep before otaku. Now I can't sleep. And ugh I hate this. I'm not blaming him at all I'm blamingMyself for being nervous about being lonely

 

[Harley Quinn]

Just realized my post is not well organized...

 

[Just_Dan]

Saying the last goodnight I say to people I'm texting or talking too scares me too because I know it'll be hours before I hear from someone again and the loneliness set in just before I try sleeping.

 

[Ronin]

@Harley Quinn, there's nothing shameful about being lonely. Even lonely all of the time, even when in the middle of a crowd, even when a person doesn't miss anyone at the moment, and so on. You're reaching out and talking about it, you're talking to people, that's quite good. Loneliness is a feeling, it doesn't have much to do with how alone we are, in any sense, but it's sneaky; you're doing things to outwit it and right now, you posted. That's awesome first step to learning about yourself, how/when/why/for whom you feel this and that.

So, don't blame yourself, you're just feeling something super common and thinking on it. It's okay. Instead, what can you do to feel better before sleeping? And how can people here help you get there?

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Please try not to blame yourself for any of those feelings regarding loneliness! It is natural to want to be around people and have others in your life. You know that this is a problem for you, so kudos to you for acknowledging it so that you can work on feeling less lonely.