Recent content by Iwillsurvive1101

And I starting to feel my anger. Probably the first time ever. But maddi and "the bad one" feed it intensely. I have never been and angry person. But as of lately I an furious and I just want to punch the closest object to me

I havent. I have been doing alot of research on all of this. I recently had an affair. And couldn't remember what or why it had happened. I thought it was my ptsd not realky understanding my blackouts haven't really been black out but DID. so I have been journaling trying at least reading...

I have been diagnosed with c-ptsd, icd, adhd and anerexia , but I was recently diagnosed with DID since then it has been complete and utter chaos in my home. As of right now I have 13 "selves". In a way it has explained so many gaps in holes in my personality and my life in general. But it...

So lately I have done a lot of researching on complex ptsd from early childhood trama. Basically my bio father started molesting me at the age of 2. When my ptsd is in full throttle I have black out and hallucinations. Now I am starting to see that it might now be a hallucination as much as...

When ever my husband is cranky, sad, or just blah. My anxiety kicks into overdrive. I get so physically ill. It makes me nauseated, have heart palpitations, shake uncontrollably, and my body feels like there is a million needles inside me trying to burst out. Does this happen to anyone...

I'll have to look into that. This site has helped me so much the last couple days understanding more about what I have been dealing with as well as making it so I dont feel so alone.

I haven't been to therapy since I was a 18. So 7 years. I have already been diagnosed with cptsd, adhd, severe depression, and sever anxiety. After the incident had happened I saw my old councilor but I felt she had poor advice and didn't want to go back. It has been 2 weeks since my husband...

Dissociation. And that is the plan. The last person I was seeing I didn't feel was prepared to deal with me the way I needed. But I found a psychiatrist that does therapy ad well. And she specializes in PTSD, dissociative disorders, childhood trauma, relationship and family therapy as...

Long story short. I am 25 years old and a sufferer of CPTSD. I was mentally emotionally physically and sexually abused by my biological father from ages 2-15. Emotionally and mentally abused by my step father. Molested by my step grandpa. And raped by someone I considered a good friend...

So I would like to start off my saying hello! A little about me. I am 25 years old married to an amazing man. The man of my dreams really. We have two beautiful boys who are 4 and 1. These are my 3 musketeers. But this isn't a typical love story at all. In fact quite the opposite. My...

I recently have had an episode where I did. Its put a huge wound on my marriage. It was alot this past august where there is alot I dont remember at all. And I ended up having an affair in it. I get very self destructive. Self harm, suicide attempts, permiscuity. It's hard to lose control...