Recent content by Javagoat

Our mothers should have coffee. Mine was terribly abusive to my father and neglected us. She also exploded into intense rages and emotionally traumatized us in multiple ways. I don't hate her but to say she was a awful mother is a horrific understatement. I recognize that she was sick but...

Before I had the courage to get into therapy, I had no idea how much of the everyday life was effected by some level of dissociation. I knew that I "checked out" because my wife complained about it. I did it so often and had done for so many years that it was normal experience me. When I...

I have had the most success with muscle relaxers that were prescribed for my fibromyalgia. Flexeril is good but can make me a little foggy the next day. Zanaflex is shorter acting so it helps me get to sleep without making me feel weird the next day. Antihistamines like the one in Zquil can...

I relate to how you feels SwordsPandaGirl. I struggle with trust all the time. My head used to tell me that I was better off alone partially because I couldn't trust other people's behavior and the rest because I couldn't trust my own. Either way someone would screw it up. My parents...

It's a rough road to be the partner of someone with ptsd. My wife has suffered years of mood swings, chronic depressiion, anxiety, among many other unfortunate symptoms. Not everyone can deal with it. There is a book that someone mentioned here for partners of sufferers. I can relate to how...

I have been really trying to work on this stuff myself. I get really negative, irritable, and sarcastic. It is a lot worse when I get too stressed, have a lot of self-doubt/self-hatred, and/or my chronic pain is bad. It is a protective defense mechanism to hide my vulnerability and ward off...

I've struggling a lot with feeling abnormal and permanently damaged from childhood abuse. Getting close to people, especially romantically, is really scary. I've been with my wife for 12yrs and I've repeatedly felt that being alone would be easier. My wife is also a childhood trauma survivor...

Thankfully, my therapist doesn't use that kind of therapy. I get really frustrated when I hear about people with cptsd being subjected to it. It sound horrible and I think I would have given up on therapy. It was really hard for me to get the courage go to begin with. I hope you get a therapist...

I'm definitely with you on the anger. Childhood trauma has left me with complex psych issues and I developed fibromyalgia at 32 which I certain is trauma related. After ten years of sobriety, suffering from chronic pain, stumbling to maintain my relationship, and struggling in a another college...

I can relate to Intrepid. It took at least 2yrs of the almost 5yrs I've been in therapy to begin to trust my therapist. I would tell her that I had no hope of getting better and she would respond that she would hope for me. Progress have been painfully slow and I still have a long way to go...

I can totally relate. My partner and I have been together for almost 9 yrs. Both of us suffer PTSD from our childhoods. It definitely, makes things challenging but I love her. I struggle with depression and anxiety which is understandably worse when I get triggered by work, family, her, life or...

My partner and I have been together for 8 yrs. We trigger the crap out of each other sometimes. We both had traumatic childhoods. I've been medicated and in therapy for about three years. My symptoms are okay now for the most part. She remains my biggest trigger. She was in therapy and medicated...

Ugh, the suggestions to quit caffeine are brutal. My P and I negotiated that I could reduce to 2 caff. cups per day but I can't even do that. I agree that faking this disorder is maddening. It has impacted my life everyday for most of my life. I would not wish the experience of multiple...

Discussing the notes with your T would be hard but it seems like the right thing to do. Hopefully, she could help you manage the sadness around her Dx and observations. It sounds like hard stuff to work through on you own. Take care.

I hate that I forget stuff all the time. I'll forget what my partner just told me two minutes earlier. I have a dayplanner and a smart phone but I still forget stuff. It's really frustrating for my partner. She feels like she can't count on me.