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I am reading Black Wolf by Louise Penny and We Can Do Hard Things by Glennon Doyle and Solutions and Other Problems by Allie Brosh and am about to start Pansy by Andrea Gibson. I have a hard time reading right now so I seem to be countering that by starting multiple books at once which is not...

Update: I just stopped working with my new, new therapist after less than 4 months. I went to a one month trauma treatment inpatient program and when I came back, I realized that this new therapist was not going to be able to help me. Although I find aspects of DBT helpful, I know that's not the...

I'm listening to the last book in the Throne of Glass series, Kingdom of Ashes by Sarah Maas. I'm reading The Girl Who Lived Twice.

Yes, I very much think that counts as good news. It might not be reported in the official news channels, but it's the kind of good news that I like to focus on. I find myself diving way to deep into news stories. I tend to wait until I hear a topic that concerns me and then search that topic...

I have a difficult time filtering out background noise. I hate white noise as well because I'm constantly trying to hear over it. It's definitely hypervigilance for me. We have heat pumps as our source of heating our home and they can be really loud when it's cold. I get scared when they go on...

@Midnightmoon , I forgot to answer. It does not delay my entry into the inpatient program. My therapist and I filled out the paperwork this week. That way I can get on the wait list. She spoke with the admissions coordinator and explained the situation. When I get towards the top of the wait...

Thank you for that. I really did not want to return to that building. Reaching out to crisis is very hard, but it is worth it in the end. I'm very sorry that you had that experience with your therapist. I had a similar experience with a psychiatrist. It is really hard to not understand what...

My therapist told me last week that she is leaving her position. I was completely caught off guard. My trauma brain always tells me that everyone is going to leave me. And I have asked my therapist as recently as a month ago if she was planning on leaving. And, at least at that time, she...

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Wow, I haven't heard that kids can't get PTSD. I would definitely disagree with that statement. And I am so sorry that you witnessed a friend being killed by a car.

I wouldn't have said that I had cPTSD, but when I started to deal with trauma besides the car accident by talking about my experience being "spanked" as a child. I called it spanking because that's what the adults in my life called it. It was much worse than that. I only talked about it with my...

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Seeing my very selective eater child smiling with a huge plate of calamari for lunch. He won't eat chicken, but squid, sure thing!

I think part of my draw towards rescue drama shows and some crime shows is that there's a hero, some saves someone and/or they find the person who committed a crime and that person is held accountable. It represents what I wish I had (a hero) and what I wish had happened (justice).

No. It's an easy answer to say, harder to understand and accept.