Recent content by Joeythething

I am the same way, in that I am much less than confident in pretty much every situation... I don't stand up for myself and I am awful at being assertive or asking for anything. This is kind of funny, ha... I once got evicted from a place because my disability cheque didn't go through and I was...

I am grateful for finding this site today, I am grateful for the people here, and grateful that my child loves me in spite of my failings! On a more superficial level, I am grateful for mixed nuts, Triscuit crackers, and V8 juice. These are traditional Christmas snacks for me and for years I...

Hugs graciously accepted... that poll is a bit of an eye-opener... It makes me feel a bit less alone to know that on a super-basic level, our brains all work the same... we're all human and those of us who have been badly hurt are, in some way, in it together. I have not felt this positive...

This is a very good and simple way of explaining it, and it makes a lot of sense. And the fact that it makes sense is scary, even if it is emotionally and intellectually positive. Trauma is such a strange awful thing to happen to a brain. It is encouraging to know you've had success learning to...

It works a little bit differently where I am because I am in Canada, but being approved for disability significantly improved my quality of life. I am able to afford an apartment and buy groceries, and even some 'fun' things for my child. Here, dental and vision care (very basic, but still) come...

Oh God yes, exactly! I can't do anything for people who are kind to me, I can't even buy them things, so it seems almost dangerous to accept any form of kindness. I can't believe someone else feels like this, thank you so much for sharing with me.

I would definitely participate as best as I could in that discussion... taking up too much space and wanting to hide is a good way to describe how kindness typically makes me feel. It's a bit like I have to say no, please, I don't deserve this, and I will drive you so crazy with my stupidity...

Thank you so much. I feel inexplicably guilty about being here, like I will get in trouble with someone for reaching out or I am doing the wrong thing by sharing. I don't know why it is so hard for me to accept empathy... do you have any insight you can share? I react negatively to people being...

Yes! You share my thoughts on both fire and recovery... I want to know more about PTSD and why I do some of the things I do. The more I know about things, the easier it is to look at them logically and maybe overcome them. I try to channel my inner Spock when I feel like I am slipping out of...

Haha, you guys are going to think this is funny... or pathetic, maybe... I am so happy that everyone is being so nice to me but it is super overwhelming! I am happy but I am crying and I do need to take a small break... I will come back and respond to all of you very soon. Thank you so so much...

I have been in therapy on and off for a long time. My first therapist when I was 16 ended up getting arrested for something gross and I very suddenly never saw him again. We had forged a deep connection, I knew he really cared about me. And then he was just gone. It's a long story, but along...

It means a lot to hear someone put it that way... I have been looking around and you all seem like such wonderful strong people. I hope I can absorb some of that. Thank you so much for answering! I say I'm stupid... but I don't know. My IQ is normal. I just can't seem to be normal! I look at...

hello. I am new to these forums. I am 30, female, and have been suffering for about 14 years now. I feel like I live in a bubble separate from everyone else. I am a horrible person, and everyone who sees me seems to just be able to tell. Butterflies live in my stomach full-time. Going out in...