Disability - how does it work, how can it help?

[simplysawa]

now that im in the process of applying for assistance weather, its supplemental income or disability, im realizing that the main issue is most likely mental illness.

Maybe it was denial but for some reason i didnt think of depression or ptsd as a illness or disease. I did have multiple bouts of depression that lasted years but thought i had gotten past the worst and that i had done great without treatment.

What i didnt realize is when i had those bad bouts of depression before i either had family still , or enough money to have that time off so there wasnt much pressure or stressors. I think ive worked on and off for about seventeen years.thinking about how hard it was from the start, im kinda surprised i made it that long even though it wasnt full time straight through.

i dont know what happened but something happened the past few years, just seemed to get much worse.

I had stabing pain starting berfore my teens, but i ignored it i would mention it to friends sometimes but really tried to not complain especially when it was happening. I was able to hide it well till my mid twenties then people would catch me grimicing.

Now i feel kinda stupid cause it seems people dont care even though your crying from the pain, all this time ive been concerned about making them uncomftorble not being a burden and people dont seem to think about that,all the effort you put in to try and be considerate and keep your emotions or behavior appropriate. I worry about so much already and feeling less and less in control doesnt help, not just with ny emotions or thoughts But my life in general.

these issues have pretty much stripped me of everything, job apartment car friends, they say ssi or ssdi can help pay bills and such but what about bills i kinda dont have now cause i lost those things, can i get a small place again?

I appreciate my friend letting me stay ,but i need my own space, i feel so uncomftorble most of them time, just worried and clueless on how assistance will be able to help me, am i allowed to get dentures? I just dont really see a way for anything to get better

 

[Joeythething]

It works a little bit differently where I am because I am in Canada, but being approved for disability significantly improved my quality of life. I am able to afford an apartment and buy groceries, and even some 'fun' things for my child. Here, dental and vision care (very basic, but still) come with being granted disability and I hope very much it is the same for you. I also get access to job training that is directed at people with disabilities.

It is very, very hard to move up in the world on very limited income assistance, but in most places, being designated as a person with a disability gives you access to types of help and care that you would not otherwise get. You deserve care.

I am so sorry my location makes my input a bit less useful, but I want to offer you some encouragement, because you have taken a very positive step.

 

[simplysawa]

Thank you joey, encouragment is always appreciated , it is hard to get to the point of asking for help, it feels like a defeat but it helps to hear that it has improved your quality of life which is what we really need. Its funny they tell me it will take a while like six months to get a decision, but i dont mind, ive been in a bit of a daze so time doesnt really matter, i only worry because of the person helping me right now, i know six months to him seems like too long, but ive been out of work two years already so im not sure if its really the financial burden or more that ive detereriated more mentally and he doesnt know how to cope with it. Obviously very overwhelmed with so much, trying to start therapy keep up with regular doctors and renew my foodstamps this in january. Its been hard just accepting i have these empairments from childhood trauma, but i guess i am finally accepting it