Screwed

[Touchy]

Im screwed, got into a verbal altercation, a kid 6-7 year old kid, totally naked, pissing into the pool, butt naked, i announce my disdain, lady comes over 6" from face, bal bla bla, return colorful language. I leave, a bright idea to return to get her picture to report her ass to the property, she snatcheed my phone, instant reaction, Instant reaction, hit her twice, now, $3500 attorney fee, had ro buy a new phone, arrested, wife pissed at me, found out im getting evicted today, over what, this bitch snatched my phone and threw it in the pool, thats freaking assault, i reacted, and so, this is that freedom i was protecting, the reality, guilty until proven innocent, i will forever hate the thought of leaving the house after all this, i need more sertraline

 

[Touchy]

Im screwed, got into a verbal altercation, a kid 6-7 year old kid, totally naked, pissing into the pool, butt naked, i announce my disdain, lady comes over 6" from face, bal bla bla, return colorful language. I leave, a bright idea to return to get her picture to report her ass to the property, she snatcheed my phone, instant reaction, Instant reaction, hit her twice, now, $3500 attorney fee, had ro buy a new phone, arrested, wife pissed at me, found out im getting evicted today, over what, this bitch snatched my phone and threw it in the pool, thats freaking assault, i reacted, and so, this is that freedom i was protecting, the reality, guilty until proven innocent, i will forever hate the thought of leaving the house after all this, i need more sertraline

The bigger problem, to top it all off, i really dont know why my reaction was to swing, i cant figure it out!! Closest thing i canbthink was a trip wiee hitting my boot and jumping away from it, instantly, the on the ground akready when it went off, it was a trip wire. I'm so overwhelmed... shocked, dismayed, she started the verbal assault, she got physical first, my reaction, dont know why i swung, now, im screwed.

 

[KA60]

Well. I see myself via your post in my latest interaction with my father which I just posted. Why am I signing up for this? With my father? I will continue to be blamed. What I allow will continue.

I mean no disrespect just want your insight about you. Ok. The kid peed in the pool. What would have happened if you just walked away and let the kid the mom experience the natural consequrnces of this behavior? In the mean time you go do an enjoyable activity work on yourself etc?

All I take is escitalopram 20mg. And lamotrigine 100mg ER for seizure prophylaxis. More medication will not help me. What will work with me is managing my fight flight fear fawn response. And work on my core beliefs. And me keeping in mind people are highly stressed right now and have entitlement mentality as well as I am a victim mentality.