Recent content by Jordash

The answer will never be in a pill!! Medications are another way to mask your issues just like alcohol and drugs.

I f*cking hate myself!!! Yesterday in therapy I made a joke about having a time machine. My therapist asked me where I would go if I had a time machine. I told her I would go back to when I was conceived and stop my parents from having sex.

I'm in this exact predicament. What we are doing to counter balance is becoming very good friends first. Its strange for.both of us because.we.are.both use to jumping straight in to a relationship. We are both taking DBT for.one year and force each other to attend and make sure they other one...

This is the reason why therapy is a f*cking scam. No matter how you slice it it will always be about the money. Don't give me the "it's just business" speech because it's never business for the ones being f*cked. Our society is nothing, but a business siphoning your souls. No matter how much...

I found I only have episodes when I sleep on my back. Haven't slept on my back for over 10 years.

It may be a sign that you are an Empath. We are the spiritual therapist of the world. Do you find that you encounter people you don't know giving their life story? Do you feel you have a unique ability to connect to anyone? Do a little research if you're interested.

I was in dbt for three months and could never do my homework. Throughout the week I would pull it out and try to complete the assignment, but I can't see my self doing any of it. I was pulled out of group because it triggered me every week until I ended up in the ER. You may not be ready for...

I finally convinced T to give me 90 minutes a session. When I asked for twice a week she automatically denied me. I broke down and tried my damnedest to explain what I was filling. 40 minutes into our session she said she would have to see if she could but it couldn't be every week. My mind...

My T tears are the most sincere form of validation she can ever give me. I view most of the validation given by therapists is scripted and I don't like it at all, but tears can not be faked in those precious moments.

Yes I tried four times. I can't imagine she did this. She told me it was a good session as I walked out. f*ck I hate PTSD!! My thoughts keep changing every hour. Im confused more than anything.

Update At the end of my session she tells me to email her how I want next session be. So I sat down for four hours today and typed away. I sent it and later on I noticed I had an email. My email was blocked and I'm not sure what to think at this point. This is why I don't get close to...

I'd rather just shut my self off as I've done for the past 30 years. This is why I didn't want to begin therapy. Pulling up my past and kicking my ass out the door. I just don't give a f*ck anymore.

I can't use the phone. I'm against any synthetic medication so I won't let myself go 5150. Three weeks ago I dissociated and came to in the ER getting my blood taken. No one explained why I was there until I spoke to the crisis worker after 6 hours. After they took blood a nurse walked up to...

I've gotten to the point that I don't even want to write in this forum because I feel nothing I can say means anything. It began a month ago when my therapist told me she doesn't have the time to read all my emails(I have this thing about using the phone...I can't so emails were my way to...

I've been running my entire life. Been homeless for almost 4 years. Now I'm thinking of running away from therapy because I've created this bound with my therapist that's way too intense for me.