Recent content by JudeWest

The only reason I didn't was because I didn't know how long it would take to find my body and if my cats would survive that long. It feels like I'm always that baby I was that was locked in a closet. It feels like there's something viscerally wrong with me why do I always get singled out? I...

Yeah. They have PTSD too and we talked about how we both tend to do the same thing we basically hugged it out. I'm proud of myself. Its something to tell my therapist whenever I see her

I resisted my instincts and admitted what I was doing and what hurt me and we worked it out they didn't mean it like that at all and explained what they meant. I think I did good

I plan to be a parent, but I have to graduate my therapy first. Exposure therapy is just painful and I think we need to make adjustments. I want to be a therapist too, but again, I need to graduate my therapy. I want to break the curse. I don't want to continue this. I'm very careful I don't...

They're living in an unideal, not helpful, traumatiZing situation and their move has been indefinitely cancelled. I offered my home for the third time. They said I was a last resort because of where I live. Everyone I've offered this help to says no. Idk if I'm really unbearable and my...

I don't want them to see me sick. I know a person with PTSD untreated can really mess a kid up especially when they're in an episode. PTSD can be like a virus. You can pass it on from generation to generation. That's what happened to me and I've seen it happen to my friends. I don't want to...

Honestly I don't get this I just feel like you're mocking my fear

All of them. Children because I'm worried about messing them up with my sickness and women and men both.

People

How do I let go of the fear? It's the fear that gets me the most. I thought emdr was the key to approaching that since it's a type of exposure therapy and it's really not her fault I've been in therapy this long, I didn't really talk in therapy until 19 when my mom wasn't involved, and then I...

I have to finish emdr. I only trust this therapist she's been with me since I was twelve. I don't want to relive everything that's ever happened to me with someone new. That's just terrifying. I don't want to relive it like I was just yesterday. Even talking about it is enough to make me...

Yes I've told her and we don't go back to the safe place after emdr. My flashbacks last for weeks I don't even know I'm in them. I feel like I woke up today to just the normal. Zero emotions, total apathy. Don't feel anything about anything. I live in the United States and I have no one to...

I'm currently in emdr and I like my therapist but she does not bring me to the safe place after we remember things. I have flashbacks for weeks. I can't even tell when I'm in one. I used to have the classic ones but now I have emotional ones that last for weeks and I don't know I'm in them...

I'm from the United States. Can't stand it here. Always waiting to be attacked. I went to France to see my husband. It was so much different. Didn't have to be so afraid. But this place, this place is a curse

I'm sorry I trained my husband to calm me down from these spirals Its just been going on for weeks and I finally asked him for help I didn't think it would work but it did. I think I just have been having a really bad emotional flashback I've been remembering things from emdr and I've been very...