Recent content by karamellow

that makes sense @EveHarrington thank you for saying that. It's just so hard to believe that anyone could ever love or understand me and my son and everything we've been through and all the baggage we carry. Leaving him means losing the only father figure my son has ever known, and facing all of...

How do I know if it's me and my PTSD or him? I feel like I loathe him. When he touches me my skin crawls. I dread climbing into bed next to him. I feel like I can't trust him. I can't be vulnerable. I am afraid that he is going to do something to hurt my son when I am not around. He is lazy...

Zoloft starts today. God help me I hope this brings relief. Thanks for the encouraging words. :)

I listen to sleep hypnosis videos on YouTube sometimes. Jody Whitely has some good ones. Helps me stop the racing thoughts and I usually am asleep before the 15 minute mark. Sometimes I take a bath with Epsom salts and essential oils and listen to a relaxation meditation before bed also. I also...

Going to the doc today and I'm going to ask for Zoloft. Talked to my sons former T who also does emdr and she said get stable and then try to work on things so I'm praying for relief. Its been 7 years since I've had meds.

I thought that too. Last time I saw my doc and told him what was going on and asked for meds, I told him I had success with Zoloft and he gave me paxil. It was awful. Been a long time since I've been on meds. 7 years, but this sucks big time and I don't want to go back to self medicating. Thanks...

Family can be a traumatizing group of people. Sounds like you are better off with some distance from them. Glad to be here and glad you are here too.

I hate it too. Intimacy in general is hard for me. Seeing myself naked and even being touched by or touching even kissing my husband are difficult for me sometimes. I hate it in magazines, movies, Facebook. But its everywhere. I heavily sensor what mediums I use. We don't do cable or satellite...

Thks. I have heard that as well which is what terrifies me. But I'm barely functioning and I need to do something

Its awful. Worst fear come to life. Even though I did everything humanly possible to protect him it still happened. By a family member. I just thank God that I figured it out and knew the questions to ask and I wasn't afraid to seek help. Hopefully saving him from a much more difficult future...

Thank you. My son has undergone and been discharged from play therapy with the best in the region. Recently found out she too offers emdr. I am having so much trouble with the container and safe place part that I am afraid to move forward. My life and marriage are very chaotic right now and my...