Recent content by kris

They aren't meant for me per say but if they were open and I was gone and they need to put me somewhere that's where I would end up. So guess its not like its truly mine and I could sell it type though. It's just a matter of if I am gone it would be o shit no what and then the lights would...

So I am not suicidal, I have been this last week though (seeing my therapist 2-3 times a week) but that's not why I am asking this question. During my suicidal crisis last week the realization that if I were to be successful in harming myself I would be buried by my brother (the abuser) hit me...

Prior to now I hadn't been suicidal in over a year.0

I havent been suicidal in over a year and the lastbtime it happened was the same time last year. It the holidays and hunting season which my brother aka the person who abused me loved and also the time of year that he passed away. I have also just recently changed meds and it seems To have made...

The therapist I've seen for just about 5 yrs wants me to see someone else to work on EMDR therapy. I am so nervous about this, as he says that seeing a new therapist would mean I would no longer see him. I try to be tough and act like that doesn't bother me but feeling really upset over not...

Not sure what has been going on lately. I don't know if I should be worried but lately I am afraid to talk to people sometime do to the fact I don't know if the event actually happened or if the event just happened in my dreams. In other words I am not sure if I actually talked to these people...

Not sure what is going on, I wasn't even concerned of a mass being found as its basically the nipple and area around it that's causing the pain and inflammation and redness. Not breast feeding or anything like that, I went in just expecting her to look at them and say oh you have an infection...

Before the doctor looked at me she asked if I had been abused and obviously I knew going in I would have to have a breast exam. I was prepared for that and although was having some anxiety I knew I had coping skills I could use to help me. So then as she starts the exam she says I see you have...

Sorry didn't explain good yes they are just dismissing me because I have been abused. Just because I don't have a lump in my breast that she can feels means nothing is wrong even though I have redness and swelling and lots of pain apparently.

I have no idea how or why the provider is connecting my breast pain to abuse. I know doctors are mandatory reporters but no my abuser has passed away five years ago and hasnt abused me in about ten years. It seems like she saw ptsd in my chart and just wham this girl is messed in the head she...

Why does it seem like every time I go to the doctor for something they throw my symptoms back at me and say its from being abused. I could accidentally step on a nail and go in with it sticking out of my foot and the damn doctor would blame it on being abused. Just seems like every time I go...

What is best is to stay in therapy actually. I think... I don't know! It probably is but I am so frustrated with things. There isn't anything wrong with my therapist. Not sure what to do, I just feel stuck and afraid. Have been working on trauma related things and the more and more I work on...

So I want to quit therapy. I have decided that I just want to stop, so I cancelled all my appointments. Now my therapist calls me and he thinks I need to come in and discuss this. I don't want to I just want to move on, but he is insists that I should talk to him about being referred to...

Viibryd has worked very well for me, I have been taking it since July or so, my symptoms are still not great but overall this med is working good. I take 40mg a day I had to work up from 10 mg to the current dose, and as long as I take the medication I do well on it. Its just I think I need...

I have been in therapy for nearly 2 years now and I am debating if I should continue or not. What I originally went for does seem to be a lot better, yet I know there is more to work on. I dont know what to do, continue or be done? Before I have wanted to quit but that was avoidance because I...