Recent content by Ldm0899

Thank you, I'm having a hard time right now by going back to my old ways and just ignoring it. Thankfully I can't completely forget it as it has upturned my entire family. And if I keep pushing g it away I'll regret it

I'm just super confused at this point. I am starting therapy next week. We'll a consultation. But is a start

Sorry I can't figure out the quote thing. I guess a lot of my issues are I'm a bartender so I'm in control but I also get to socialize, and if I don't want to I just keep myself busy. So actually socializing without my job is super hard for me. Believe it or not my BF actually mentioned this...

No thank you for the wonderful idea to make peace/friends with what is keeping me sane.

i know im a little late on this one, but i absolutely love this. i to have no memory, and i like the thought of " making friends" with the subconscious as our protector. i always thought i was tough and untouchable and now i know it wasnt me, it was my buddy. he is the reason i survived thus...

if i try to stick it out, i end up getting angry. and that never turns out well. but its awesome that you can do it, even if you want to flee. you have the courage i dont to handle it.

If i get pulled out into public, and dont have a distraction or a point of interest im gone as soon as possible.

thats exactly how i feel, i have plenty of acquaintances (im a bartender) but if they try and turn it into anything more like a real friendship i immediately find a reason not to go out or do whatever it is they want me to. also if im not in control of the situation i become extremely socially...

I have a hard time getting close to anyone. I have a bf of 4 years and he is the only one besides my sister that I even talk to. I've tried making friends, but once personal things come up I back out. I'm no good with socializing.

Just wanted to give a tiny little update. Since I found out I haven't slept more than 2 hrs a night. But, since I found you guys and have been able to talk about it more I actually slept. So I think that's progress. Even if it's tiny. Thank you all! !

Wow, thank you so much. I don't really want to force the memories, I more or less just wanna talk about it to a person who has the right questions if that makes sense. Again thank you

I had an appt set up and then a close friend strongly suggested I do not go to him. So a summary of what I've got going on. I was told this week by my sister that my father molested me. Without every detail he did it to her and she remembers all of it. So yes I believe her, but I don't remember...

Thank you, I'm so glad I found you guys!

I plan on doing this as slow as possible. One thing I'm struggling with is, although I've exhibited numerous symptoms of abuse. Ie: addiction, I chew on my nails constantly and have my entire life, I wet the bed and sucked my thumb until I was 12, extremely early masterbation ect. But I've...

Thank you so much. It's uplifting knowing others who have been abuse can make it through to help us who just start or have been dealing. All I can hope is I make it there one day.