Recent content by Leigh925

Wow. Way to redirect!!!! Impressive. So glad you are able to do that for yourself. I think that is something to really be proud of.

Sounds like you are definitely stuck in s flooded cycle or a body memory flashback kind of thing. When that happens to me I often feel like nothing is working and freaking out about the anxiety makes the anxiety even worse and then I get stuck. I don't know if it is as important to figure it...

@void it is brutal. That is four hours a week regardless of how I use them. Mostly I do two 2hr sessions. one hour was just enough to destabilize me before I went home. I'm not the best at grounding. I will go to three hours a week in June. This year will be better. I only have to pay a $5,000...

I pay $1600 a month. I pay up front and then three times a year I get partial reimbursement from my insurance company....after I meet a $8,000 deductible. :( My paycheck covers my therapy only. Thank goodness my husband makes enough to pay the bills.

Thank you so much @ladee i really appreciate that. My mom had a much worse childhood than me as well. I'm surprised that she survived as long as she did. My mom was great at times. We were just more than she could mentally handle!

Same for me. I sometimes feel guilty talking about her in therapy. I hope she forgives me for drudging out the family secrets.

@Saria thank you for the link to the book. I downloaded it as soon as I saw your post. I am learning so much about myself. The weird thing is that I sent my therapist a text asking if he had read this book. He had just ordered it from Amazon and it is supposed to arrive at his house today so we...

Yep. I used to wake up soaking wet and change clothes in the middle of the night. I have always had some of that but it was getting bad. I recently had a hysterectomy and I am back to baseline with them so my doctor thinks the hormone imbalances exacerbated the night sweats greatly. I started...

I wish I could have more control over those things and choose but I don't. Every time I try to stuff something and not go near it until a better time...I've found I will pay for it in other ways....nightmares, dissociation, sickness etc. It just bubbles up whether I want it to or not. I can...

He did not have brain injury though! Sorry you kind of got a double dose of it!

Gotcha! I think you would still like it. The psychologist that wrote the book shares his experiences from a brain perspective after he got hit by a car. I found it fascinating.

I experience this as well. I can visualize my parts I know what they look like.....what they sound like...so I can see them but when I switch...I am looking out through their eyes...don't know if that makes sense. I dont lose awareness completely. I can feel myself fading almost into a...

It sounds like the situation was insane but your response to it was a common one. It is amazing what we can survice and do to keep from hurting our children!

When you have to hit rewind on the TV three times because you can't remember what the person on the screen just said. Geez sometimes it takes me forever to watch something.

Yes! This!