Recent content by LMaKenna

"" A 'you are not alone' kind of thing. And also to remind myself that 'useful' is a better test than Deserving. Because there does need to be some kind of test before you diagnose and treat. The most useful test seems to be the usefulness test.""" BlueOrange, i really don't understand. This is...

I understand about the disassociation. For me there are quite a few memories where i can see it 3rd person(like i'm watching from outside) OR 1st person(like it's happening to me. I think maybe the 3rd person is a way to remember, but treat it like it didn't happen to you, it was somebody else...

There are only a few vulgar words. No big deal. Songs about others struggling with similar issues do help sometimes. Sometimes they make you sit there and cry, but that can be good too. The song i can relate to right now is Phoenix Burn by Alpha Rev. (I tried to include a link, but they...

i don't do writing, but maybe try really little. Just put in the diary "i feel sad today", or "i'm staying in bed all day", whatever. Then if your fingers and brain keep adding more that's good too. You can even put in stuff like "i missed the last 3 days but i'm... today". Just a...

When i look at the thread again, maybe what i said above doesn't really apply. However, i do understand what you mean. The little pieces i had didn't make sense until right after my mother died about 35 years later. Then the connecting parts started filling in like shadows rising up from the...

I'm really new here so i don't know if this reply helps. There was one time, one time only, when i was getting to the bottom of the basement steps. I was maybe 10 or so. I was there many times before and after without this happening. As i got to the bottom, i was hit with intense, soul deep...