Recent content by Lukie

Can't speak from an experience doing this, but I share your fantasy @Seagreen. Getting up one day, taking my little girl with me and leaving. Not tell anyone I'm going, just go. Some days its enough to remind myself that I have this power over my own life.

YES. As someone who survived a relationship with a sociopath, believe me when I say this.. It will get worse. A lot worse. That isn't a question of if, it is a question of when. I cannot stress enough and it is no exaggeration when I say your life could be in danger.

This is a very mentally unstable and dangerous man. Run far and run fast!!

Wow, your 'pittance' huh? Eesh. Sorry you're struggling so much to find the right therapist. Great that you are doing right by yourself continuing to look for a good fit though. Good luck in the hunt.

Ok. Thanks all. Think I've got a better picture now. I understood the art therapy part, just not the whys and how tos. Not going to knock it until I've tried it.

Anyone ever hear of this? Know what it consists of? Started seeing a new therapist tonight and she says this is something she utilizes a lot. I don't know what this means. I do know there isn't an artistic bone in my body, and you couldn't get me to 'draw a picture of my trauma' at gunpoint.

Yep. Quite often. Or finding myself stuttering when I do manage to speak. Or when trying to explain something to someone, realizing that I'm relaying the story out of sequence, or saying something different than the thought I intended to express. It's like brain and mouth don't meet up anymore.

That sounds like a lot of shit building up, over a long period, and coming out at the worst times. That sounds like a slow burn becoming an inferno before you knew it, with no out. Stress makes people do some f*cked up things. Living with those mistakes on constant replay through our mind...

@Karen12 That must have been a really hard thing to have to do. But I'm glad you found empowerment in it. Sometimes that's the catch 22- cut someone out and lose them forever, or continue to live with the cloud of negativity they hold over your head. I struggle with this in my family...

@Lionheart777 I've got a few good friends who are basically hermits themselves. We come together every now and then when the urge strikes, then go our separate ways for a long time. I'm glad for those friendships in moments where it seems like everyone else feels entitled to my time and...

Thanks very much. It helps having other people reiterate what I already know at heart is the solution. Playing doormat and gatekeeper to other people's emotions has led me into some pretty heinous situations. I've acknowledged it. Now it's a matter or confronting old patterns and changing them.

Looking to hear other people's advice/opinions. From your experience, when cutting toxic people out of your life, is it better to do so silently and without explanation? Or give your reasoning for terminating the association? I hate the idea of hurting anyone's feelings, but am tired of making...

Haven't many words but Wow.. Thank you for sharing your story, it must have been difficult to open up about all that. It was difficult to read. I understand completely the shame and guilt. Drowning in it every day. I'm sure you've been told before that little girl's death wasn't your fault...

Yeah, except for me I like going for drives and turning the music loud. It stops the thoughts for that little while.

That is a very understandable fear, but remember, if you do decide to report-- no one will know you are reporting except for the police, or anyone you tell. The police will not laugh at you or 'dismiss you as some stupid girl'. It is their job to take your claim seriously and to investigate...