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skill

toy

I so identify with this! We never had any money growing up, and though Mum & Dad always managed to feed us, it was touch and go sometimes. I remember my brother and I used to snack on uncooked spaghetti, you know, the hard stuff in the packets from the supermarket. We didn't think anything of...

I don't know if this helps at all, but I am discovering dissociated parts (it's still unclear). I think one of them is dead, but she is a younger version of me. I only know of her from dreams. I think she is around when I'm very dissociated. In my dreams, she doesn't do anything, and is...

whale

frog (as in Kermit)

I've been "out of it" for many months. I kind of came back to myself about a week ago, funnily it was by seeing the cover of Hitchhiker's Guide (LOL), as I had begun to read it again quite some time ago, and then dissociated I guess. Seeing it made me feel like me again, and I've been...

To all of you who might still be around and somehow remember me, I'm back, kind of. I say kind of, as I've "come back to myself" so to speak, and I'm afraid of losing that (by triggering stuff). So I'm gonna have to be careful what I read at the moment, though I want to support others. I...

I have screamed every now and then, even often in the last 6 months, in flashbacks. The thing is, I had "left the building" so to speak, and wasn't "there" to ground myself, as I can sometimes do. I heard myself screaming, but wasn't in my body, and it was like someone else was screaming. How...

@FindingMyself88 I am so very glad you reached out for help, and had a good experience from doing so. Glad to hear you are stable now. Like brat says, just ease into life again. Take it slow, and take care of yourself. You are worth it. :hug: if that's ok!

Thanks guys. I kind of dropped out for a bit there, but I really appreciate your support. I panicked a bit about this. I am still ok, now. Before I would have still been messed up. I don't really know what happened. My husband was tired and became nasty and impatient with our son who was...

Thank you Echo, you are so lovely. My husband was furious, swore at me profusely and punched a hole in the wall. It just brought me back to childhood and my father. My husband called it "cranky", and felt justified in losing it too. I think now that it's the emotional abuse and fear of my...

I made a big mistake. :banghead: I thought I was "cured" because my 3 year old fragmented part seemed to be gone. I think she is still gone, I don't think I can feel her, but I've been triggered tonight. That's the disappointing part - I was silly enough to think it wouldn't happen again, as...

I second what Laurie said - I know I leaned on this forum in the days after EMDR, and it helped me so much.

Hi @billie . I found both to be pretty rough, in different ways. If you're prone to dissociation, you may find it happens more, or more intensely, after EMDR. I agree with the others, grounding and self-soothing are really important afterwards. Try to have a quiet couple of days if you can...