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Hi everyone- I just wanted to post an update. I have completed a few weeks of an IOP program as well as other support groups. I am also on a new medication. I feel like a new person compared to when I originally posted! I only have a few weeks left of the program and hopefully I can continue...

Hi Muse, Thanks so much for your thoughtful post:) Yes, I think that the timing of this really left something to be desired. I mean, I had a substantial breakdown in his office in March. If he really has limited availability all of a sudden, then at least help me with options. Also, these...

Hanginon-I really appreciate your thoughts. I am trying and start my new program tomorrow. I am trying to be hopeful as the past few days have been very, very hard. MIZZKK-I appreciate the time you took to write this reply. But it really felt hurtful to me. I continually think of his side...

Hi Mal, Thanks so much for the suggestion. I am really trying. I have started a volunteer job. But I am so overwhelmed with this depression that I have trouble even leaving the house. It is awful. I think that I have not fully accepted that suicide is not an option. All I want is to feel better!

Thanks so much. I am very optimistic about it. I just need to feel stable again so I can function more efficiently and I think that is the point of it. It should only be for 3-4 weeks.

Well, I received word today that I will be starting an intensive program next week (about 15 hours a week) for a few weeks and then into a group that meets once a week. I am relieved but a little apprehensive, too.

Thanks, poofycat. I just don't think I am grounded enough to continue therapy right now. I need to get strong again and maybe I can continue then. I just can't keep going the way I am.

Thanks for the welcome,intothelight. City: I had no idea that this destabilization from therapy was so common. I really thought I was going crazy. In the 3 years I have been going there have been numerous incidents with him. As I said, I think he is a good person and I believe he cares on some...

Just as an aside, I did a search on this site for destabilizing therapy. Wow, can I ever relate to the situations and emotions discussed. That in itself is quite helpful because I thought there was something wrong with me but is very comforting to know that there's experience the same thing. I...

Yes, they are talking about a program for me eventually that includes support if I need it 24 hours a day. Although I think it is best for me to leave individual therapy, at least for now, it is actually going to feel a bit like withdrawal at the same time. I have to say, I made a very good...

Yes, I totally agree-that is exactly how it feels to me!! Much too destabilizing for me right now. It completely throws me off balance. Yes, they are looking into a trauma group for me. She thinks a couple of weeks in a more intensive group for depression might help to start with to help get...

Mary: thanks so much for understanding. I really wanted honest opinions and I appreciate them. I also appreciate your validation that it could have been handled better. Yes, he did play on my biggest fear and trigger :( Eve: there have been a few other incidents with this therapist in the...

I actually feel pretty guilty now. I am not going back to therapy because it is really unhealthy for me to depend on other people. But apparently I was so far off in my judgment of the therapist's actions. It was not the fact that he made this change, but how he did it and how cavalier he was...

Thanks for the warm welcome:) I am really trying to pull my life together. I think that therapy was not a good thing for me and I need to just take care of myself. I appreciate that I can come here!

Suzetig: I did discuss my feelings at my last appt before he left on vacation. I never get angry at anyone and hate conflict, but I was angry the way this was handled. I told him that I was angry and hurt and did not trust him at all anymore. That he knew how badly I have been doing and to...