Recent content by Meh

I'm having thoughts, too. Also, can't/won't do anything due to my son needing me. Am lost. This sucks. Hope you're ok. Stay strong.

Welcome to the forum. I understand how you're feeling. My abuser never felt any guilt or remorse and told me I deserved the abuse, and that it was "normal". I was really brainwashed. I have only recently been diagnosed with PTSD, after seeing a number of Ts. Finally this one (she's amazing) has...

Yes. I think it is a grooming tactic also. My abuser did that to me. Used to criticize my hair, and tell me to get a new haircut, and then tell me the new haircut was awful. He would criticize my dress sense, then tell me to wear certain things and tell me I still looked bad. He told me I looked...

Thanks for that. Yes, maybe breaks are the way to go. Or alternate trauma sessions with sessions focusing on different things. I don't actually feel comfortable going too long without seeing her. Having some time off the serious stuff will help though. Thank u

Thank you!! Feel like I have a lot to get rid of - it's like I'm poisoned. So so so want to get better and feel some happiness again.

Thanks everyone. I feel like I'm doing everything in my power and it's just not helping. I'll just keep persevering. I'm seeing my T regularly. We don't focus on trauma every time but she did say I REALLY need to get it out as I've kept it all secret for about 8 years. Once I have got it out...

Hi everyone, I have PTSD, and I'm in such a rut at the moment. My T says my trauma therapy is going well, which is great, but it's brought up all the stories of what happened to me (4 years in a sexually abusive relationship). I still have a lot more information to "purge", and my T said during...

Thanks Anthony. I have a cleaner that comes once a month but can step that up. And we have a trusted babysitter that is flexible and mostly available to look after the little one, so I will use that if I need it. I think we're fairly well set and I just need to go through it. Thanks again.

wow thanks Anthony for that response. I do have most of those stabilisers in place already. I never take leave and have heaps of it. I have told my boss about my diagnosis and said I may need a few days here and there. I have activities that calm me down and my husband is getting to understand...

Thanks! The good thing is I really like her and I know in time I'll be fine with her. Thanks for your support. Hope your treatment keeps going really well. Sounds like you're a champ!

Cool I'm glad you've had a positive response. My therapist said it is very effective. I've only seen her 3 times and I think she wants to build a rapport. As she said I tend to "lose my sh*t" with anxiety in every session so far, and I've started on some new meds so I think the plan is to wait a...

Haha the name sums it up about right, at the moment. I think your name is great too! My therapist has been trained in EMDR but she says I'm not ready for it yet. I struggle to get the words out and haven't even started touching on the details of the abuse in sessions yet. I just close up and...

Hi Raven, Yes I had a major breakdown last night (first one in over a year) just too many thoughts. Back to my numb self today though. My husband said its good to let it out and says he knows I'm so constrained all the time and it isn't good for me. I think the therapy is helping me get in touch...

Hi Hannah, My ex boyfriend (my abuser) has just been left by his girlfriend that followed me. (He was cheating on me with her, so it's a little different). However, even despite that I've thought seriously of contacting her as I know he abused her too. I find it really hard to talk about the...

Thanks RavenGirl. It sounds like you were similar to me with bottling up feelings and not being in tune with them. I don't even know what it's like to feel things at the moment. I know there's a lot there. Might have to be prepared for some tears. Uh oh! Thanks for your response. It was really...