Recent content by melsdid

It's so interesting that there's theories like that. I'd definitely say it isn't several PD's coexisting but I can see how that conclusion could be reached. You're right, that's an important breakdown. We've only recently started being able to really reliably tell when we're reacting or...

Thank you! I didn't take it that way even if I'm a little defensive about it. I know the value of IRL support, I'd LOVE a therapist. I'd go five days a damn week lol.

Funny enough we have diagnosed BPD. As an example of varying degrees of coping, Logan's got the worst of those symptoms for sure. It's definitely still all of us. I'm interested as to why you say you need to treat it first? It makes sense to some degree like, if we're all wrapped up in our worst...

I've definitely been there too, before I'd had any therapy other than some unproductive sessions in my childhood. I don't think it sounds like it from my descriptions, but my system was agonizingly slow to even acknowledge we were abnormally sad and fatigued LOL. Thanks! I'm hopeful for the...

I'm in the process of finding a therapist but I'm unemployed, have virtually zero support from my family and my insurance is crap for mental health so it's slow going. Getting better, but slow. After we were left by our abusive partner we came to the conclusion that our alter Logan had PTSD as...

Gotcha, guess it makes sense when I think about how not everyone with trauma has PTSD. Either way, PTSD wasn't something I thought I had until... I dunno, a few months ago? Definitely not originally what I assumed came with DID.

] Yes, I have cPTSD. My personal understanding is that DID and PTSD go somewhat hand in hand, I realized I had DID long before PTSD though.

I think @MoonStone is referring to pretty specific circles of internet trolls that negatively impacted kids online... I will say, I knew people from DID tumblr irl (our abuser, coincidentally, and someone who helped me realize I had DID ended up being a liar lol) and they were so toxic. Not...

Technically self dxed, but I had a therapist for several years that knew about my disorder who various alters worked with. We don't have one currently, really need one but my situation is complicated so I have to wait. And I should have clarified, I haven't been on tumblr in years lol. It was...

Thanks for responding. It makes sense, you're right. I don't wholly blame anyone other than our ex, though we definitely tend to push blame around on each other.

~Very long post detailing some trauma and inner workings of my inanely convoluted system~ I have inner-system trauma caused by exterior traumatic events, is that something that makes sense? The concept of a persecutor isn’t nuanced enough at all for our system, we used to think that’s what I...