Sufferer New, looking for others with DID

[Jade-]

The bad thing about self diagnosing is the high probability of being wrong.I had diagnosed myself with all sorts of mental disorders and when I finally did receive help I wasn't even close at all.

I'm not saying you are wrong at all,just that I was.All the time I wasted researching what I thought I had could have been spent becoming knowledgeable on what I actually did have if I had just got help sooner.

Sorry your insurance is crap,many are. Good luck finding a therapist

 

[melsdid]

The bad thing about self diagnosing is the high probability of being wrong.I had diagnosed myself with all sorts of mental disorders and when I finally did receive help I wasn't even close at all.

I'm not saying you are wrong at all,just that I was.All the time I wasted researching what I thought I had could have been spent becoming knowledgeable on what I actually did have if I had just got help sooner.

Sorry your insurance is crap,many are. Good luck finding a therapist

I've definitely been there too, before I'd had any therapy other than some unproductive sessions in my childhood. I don't think it sounds like it from my descriptions, but my system was agonizingly slow to even acknowledge we were abnormally sad and fatigued LOL.

Thanks! I'm hopeful for the future, once I make some money and leave my current area my options are going to greatly increase. I'm looking for PTSD and dissociative disorder groups in my area too, though so far not great luck. I expected there to be more because I live near the capital of my state, but oh well.

 

[Ronin]

Why not look just into abuse / trauma groups?

I mean PTSD is lifelong. You may not even have it. Even in systems it wouldn't manifest with just one person aboard. It would manifest in all of you, how well you *cope* or deal individually differs.

* judging not just by me, but a wide swath of DID people I've known whose main issue to treat *was* PTSD, even tho what they looked for was DID help.

Bc if your main issue is say borderline, you'd need treat that first. Ditto a system with ASPD gonna need 'pathy help. Stuck an Aspie with Did among there and they'll implode and get hurt and stop accessing skills they learned via specialization.

Things like that.
DID isn't just complex itself.
You need to have right the background.
And its modifiers. Because sth with PD *traits* will experience and present wild different than none up.

And one can't self diagnose that subtlety and depth.

 

[Sideways]

Good mental health care on limited funds is a bit of a bitch most places in the world. Hope you find some good IRL support soon.

Having been through traumatic experiences and knowing they're bringing your mental health down? You've done the right thing reaching out here. Don't take it as a "piss off till you're properly diagnosed" thing - this place is a fantastic support in so many ways, so stick around - it's just that I think we all here like to emphasise the need to get whatever IRL support you can.

People who have been through trauma too often find themselves minimising their experience, or living in a state of chronic "must keep coping". You don't need to do the recovery thing alone, and truth is that with the right support, lots of people do heal really well from ptsd, and you deserve that as much as anyone:)

 

[melsdid]

Why not look just into abuse / trauma groups?

I mean PTSD is lifelong. You may not even have it. Even in systems it wouldn't manifest with just one person aboard. It would manifest in all of you, how well you *cope* or deal individually differs.

* judging not just by me, but a wide swath of DID people I've known whose main issue to treat *was* PTSD, even tho what they looked for was DID help.

Bc if your main issue is say borderline, you'd need treat that first. Ditto a system with ASPD gonna need 'pathy help. Stuck an Aspie with Did among there and they'll implode and get hurt and stop accessing skills they learned via specialization.

Things like that.
DID isn't just complex itself.
You need to have right the background.
And its modifiers. Because sth with PD *traits* will experience and present wild different than none up.

And one can't self diagnose that subtlety and depth.

Funny enough we have diagnosed BPD. As an example of varying degrees of coping, Logan's got the worst of those symptoms for sure. It's definitely still all of us. I'm interested as to why you say you need to treat it first? It makes sense to some degree like, if we're all wrapped up in our worst PD behaviors we don't really make any progress with our trauma processing, but is it better to treat symptoms more holistically instead of one disorder at a time? That's my understanding, though I'm sure other things work better for some people.

I know PTSD is lifelong, we've had it our whole life just didn't recognize our own symptoms because they're part of our everyday life and I was pressured to ignore all my mental issues. We definitely need help for PTSD and that is ultimately why I'm here. We're always going to be working on understanding ourselves better and I'm not trying to integrate or anything, but I have some specific issues with my PTSD that tie into my DID, vice versa, etc.

Edit: forgot to say, I am looking into general trauma groups as well just not a ton I can realistically get to ATM

 

[melsdid]

Good mental health care on limited funds is a bit of a bitch most places in the world. Hope you find some good IRL support soon.

Having been through traumatic experiences and knowing they're bringing your mental health down? You've done the right thing reaching out here. Don't take it as a "piss off till you're properly diagnosed" thing - this place is a fantastic support in so many ways, so stick around - it's just that I think we all here like to emphasise the need to get whatever IRL support you can.

People who have been through trauma too often find themselves minimising their experience, or living in a state of chronic "must keep coping". You don't need to do the recovery thing alone, and truth is that with the right support, lots of people do heal really well from ptsd, and you deserve that as much as anyone:)

Thank you! I didn't take it that way even if I'm a little defensive about it. I know the value of IRL support, I'd LOVE a therapist. I'd go five days a damn week lol.

 

[Ronin]

I just mean it as if you have a PD it's gonna inform everything about how you perceive yourself and the world and relate to things and PTSD alone doesn't do that, even if it does a lot.

And in case some symptom is multiplied by an underlying different disorder, or comes from a different angle, how to tackle it and if you can at all will be different.

Heck, some theories think of DID itself as thrown together PDs and I really need to recheck my bookmarks on that.

It's not as easily treated as popular articles have it and what causes it to manifest in which ways matters.

So what is your emotional/perceptual baseline + how trauma fragmentated your personality and reality connection + how trauma changed your sense of self in the world (veeeery simplified PD vs dissociative disorders vs PTSD plain) needs good distinguishing.

That a person can't do correct alone. Need at least a starting dx point.

 

[melsdid]

I just mean it as if you have a PD it's gonna inform everything about how you perceive yourself and the world and relate to things and PTSD alone doesn't do that, even if it does a lot.

And in case some symptom is multiplied by an underlying different disorder, or comes from a different angle, how to tackle it and if you can at all will be different.

Heck, some theories think of DID itself as thrown together PDs and I really need to recheck my bookmarks on that.

It's not as easily treated as popular articles have it and what causes it to manifest in which ways matters.

So what is your emotional/perceptual baseline + how trauma fragmentated your personality and reality connection + how trauma changed your sense of self in the world (veeeery simplified PD vs dissociative disorders vs PTSD plain) needs good distinguishing.

That a person can't do correct alone. Need at least a starting dx point.

It's so interesting that there's theories like that. I'd definitely say it isn't several PD's coexisting but I can see how that conclusion could be reached.

You're right, that's an important breakdown. We've only recently started being able to really reliably tell when we're reacting or thinking a certain way due to our BPD and not reality. It helps that we have more inner system communication, it's made our life a lot easier.

 

[whiteraven]

Welcome, Mel!

I was diagnosed years ago - several of ours are pretty communicative, although I go through long periods where I can't communicate with anyone.

 

[Muttly]

Welcome. We have DID. normally we communicate well internally.

Just lately we've hit a bit of a glitch and internal communication is not so great. I'm glad you are taking the comments on board and not feeling pushed out. I self-diagnosed the DID and only later had it confirmed by a therapist. While the others who've commented bring up good points it's also not impossible to self-dx.

I hope you wander the forums and feel free to ask questions.

 

[Jade-]

I don't think it's that anyone is pushing the OP out bc of self diagnosis but rather stressimg the importance of seeking treatment.

 

[Ronin]

Or coming from the angle of more detailed information for the condition/s at hand, the better. :sneaky:

I simply think one may save themselves the job with complex diagnoses IF hiring a pro to do them. Because own brain? Whole life? You want to do that right.

Instead of rely on half information or bad information, or worse, a popular agenda pushing that passes itself for information.