Recent content by MesaRock

That is REALLY Good advice. I like boredom as indicator of processing being done. I've been going through divorce this year and decided to move out of state where life is calmer and fewer memories and less stimuli and expense than NYC. Today I found out that I got approved on a house lease for...

This all so reassuring. I don't know how to deal with it except sleep and reduce input. Maybe therapist has ideas. I wonder why mind can't distinguish. But I am GOING TO BE OPEN TO LOVE AND GOOD THINGS.

I'm just always braced for disaster. My response to kindness and generosity is all confused

Whew. This stuff is complicated. Thanks for kind words. Focusing on resting.

I'm had a super rough past year and in last two days have gotten a lot of good news. This is giving me panic attacks. Is this normal?

is anyone out there to send some reassurance right now i am having a really hideosu panic atack all my tools aren't working please help ca't breathe covered in sweat shaking heart pounding tools not working sorry to bother anyone but need reassurance i'm going to be okay

struggling with this too, big time. Only thing I can manage is breakfast - my afternoons make food feel noxious. I can eat at night a bit so I try then. I know there's a huge biochemical PTSD component to this - in fact, that's 99% of what it is. Have been relying on intstant oatmeal and then...

I'm in a very happy rewarding relationship but we are dealing with a lot of stress due to life stuff (work etcetera) while I go through ptsd treatment. Anyone have thoughts on good ways to care for each other and ourselves as a couple during this process?

Thanks everybody for the encouragement. I did feel a bit better when I talked to my therapist - she said I'm doing really well and everything I'm experiencing is normal for the process. 100% normal. it made me feel good, then I stopped believing her when I woke up this morning to another anxiety...

@JEKBreatheandBelieve - Thank you for your empathy...it's good to know I'm not alone. I'm definitely taking on bigger issues..I mean, WAY bigger deeper harder issues that I couldn't even approach a few months ago. And my panic attacks, while unremitting, are always an opening to do work on the...

Just checking in with folks for some reassurance that the dips and hard times can get better? Am i (at four months into therapy) making progress getting to the big stuff, or am I losing ground? For a while I was doing really well with weekly therapy and acupuncture and was starting to feel a...

I'm so happy to hear this. it's so generous of you to come back here and give a good news report. I'm terrified at the moment that I won't get better and this gives me the hope I needed. Thank you - AND CONGRATULATIONS.

@Casey_03 after running six rape crisis shelters for decades, i'm well aware I don't have a monopoly on trauma. we ran on a shoestring budget, and the police rarely cared. I.e. unprocessed kits. The billions spent on this show could actually be spent in ways that benefited survivors of trauma...

they've shut down eight blocks for this, with the crew and actors laughing around the food services trucks, and a general atmosphere of entertainment complex. My heart goes out to myself - i don't even know how I'm going to get to therapy because the've shut down the subway stop and closed the...

Thanks Ed. Yes, for years I worked with survivors, interfacing with law enforcement and fbi and the show is utterly unrealistic. now i work professionally as an activist in bringing these issues into popular awareness, and there are ways to do this without the profit driven salaciousness of this...