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    Depression and Grad School Functioning

    Thank you for your thoughtful reply. I’m not having a hard time with coursework, so much as I am with research, which is the main focus anyway. Lots of technical stuff, programming and mathematics. I find I can concentrate enough to read, but not to write, program, or think mathematically. My...
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    Depression and Grad School Functioning

    Yeah, I'm starting to open up more to the idea. I'm resistant to it but it might be an act of compassion if it makes daily life a little easier. Like, I can still function- get out of bed, shower, dress, etcetera. But I can't get work done and all of those things. I just can't. I dunno if...
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    Depression and Grad School Functioning

    Since it happened. 5 therapists at this point. I saw one I connected with right after it happened, who helped me get through the immediate crisis. I moved for grad school, and then I saw a second therapist there who was awful. I stopped seeing them in October 2019, once I got bronchitis. Then, I...
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    Depression and Grad School Functioning

    Thank you. It was unimaginable. It hurts so much.
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    Depression and Grad School Functioning

    Hi, thanks for your response. I didn't post the original trauma only because it's a long ish story. But the short version is that my Dad died by suicide, and I witnessed it. He went missing, and I went to find him. I tracked his phone and I found him holding a gun to his head. I begged and cried...
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    Depression and Grad School Functioning

    Hi everyone, I'm new to this forum. This is my first time posting. At the beginning of 2019, I experienced a major Big T trauma. At the time, I was interviewing for graduate programs in neuroscience. In addition, I was also attending and running conferences in February, March, and April of that...
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