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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    Thank you Rosebud! You’ve given me a few things to think about.i appreciate you trying to put things into perspective for me. And especially thank you for the encouragement. It brought tears to my eyes. Blessings PS is the name Rosebud a reference to the movie Citizen Kane?
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    Very true. But since I’ve waited 10 months the anxiety is through the roof. But in a moment of clarity today I texted my dr and asked her to schedule the CT scan I have been avoiding. So next week. 😩 I have never been formally diagnosed with PTSD. I’ve been on a mission for many many many...
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    I feel like I am so terrified of having a panic attack that I have to come to terms with a death diagnosis before the diagnosis so I will be able to handle it and not have a panic attack. I think I try to go through the steps until I get to acceptance but I can’t get to acceptance because if I...
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    At the end

    I’m sure you HAVE helped many many people. Your empathy has probably saved countless lives. Hold on. Things change. Ups. Downs. There are people who love you. I’m tired too. But there are people who depend on us. Sending good thoughts your way.
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    I really appreciate your explaining these things. It is fascinating and hits home with me. I have never been formally diagnosed but I’m certain I have PTSD. I’ve been treated for everything else. Basically the symptoms of PTSD. I’m going to try to find a therapist who can help me with this. I...
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    Wow thanks for your reply. How does the memory thing work? Which memories are the strongest emotional memories? Are they actual memories that I can see or just stuck in my psyche? Im going to research grounding. Thank you!!
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    that’s bitter sweet. I sometimes wonder if when I get the diagnosis it will be a relief to get it over with. But still, don’t want it. blessings.
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    That is exactly what happens to me! If I have to wait a few days I cancel! I actually got a concierge dr who told me I could come in every two months just to check in with any concerns. Then COVID hit and there went that plan! My dr says being afraid of drs is common. I tell her I’m not afraid...
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    Other Severe lack of trust in medicine and healthcare "professionals"

    Wow I am so sorry the hell you’ve been thru. I don’t trust the medical community either Do you know why you are triggered when it comes to medical things? I am triggered by anything medical, any illness, or thought of illness. Which is always on my mind. I feel like I’m in constant trigger...
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    I will go see a homeopath because she, first of all doesn’t touch me, and second, she listens. and then recommends supplements. I get anxious when I go but I can get myself there most of the time. Although lately it is getting tough. My Dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer over thirty years...
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    It sounds like a cop out but I’m too self conscious to do that. I need to be with the person and see them. And I tend to have a general distrust of people so I need to be there to read them better. But honestly, thank you for the suggestion. I just contacted my GP and asked her if she knew any...
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    Thank you for your reply. I have not been formally diagnosed with PTSD. I have been to therapists and psychiatrists for many many years. Nothing really seems to help. I’ve been reading about PTSD and I seem to fit the bill. When I was 12 my oldest sister got sick. I watched for four years her...
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    Avoiding anything medical for fear of death diagnosis.

    Anyone avoid doctors at all costs? Afraid they’re dying but can’t go get the diagnosis? Been like this for 40 years. Just realizing it is PTSD. I need help.
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