Recent content by nay.elizabeth

Thank you. It's nice to know my feelings are "typical" for this type of diagnosis, that I'm not the only one. Losing my last job and starting this one and losing all my finances along with it because of severe debt has been HELL. I hope this job works out, even if it's just a couple years...

I love that he's starting to be more open with me, about anything. He seemed ashamed of what he had done but I told him many people have gone down that path. That he is definitely not alone. I didn't make a big deal of it because I know he wouldn't want me to. I remember even as a kid wanting...

Last night as I was lying in bed with my boyfriend, somewhere in the conversation he mentioned he once tried to kill himself. We were talking about pills or something and Benadryl and I mentioned I read an article about people trying to die from Benadryl. Anyway, he said he tried killing himself...

When my gynecologist told me to get myself treated immediately, even though I didn't have symptoms of a problem, I did the typical, "Sure, sure." thinking I could handle it myself. But, alas, she was right and I was wrong. No, I did NOT want to believe things would get worse instead of better...

Because I just can't tell them I've debated suicide. What would they do with that? They can't do anything other than hug me and feed the cliché lines. It would crush them, make them worry. They don't need that.

SOMEWHERE. For obvious reasons, I can't tell friends, family or my boyfriend. I can't put this on them but keeping it to myself is unbearable. November 19th, I lost my job. For something so stupid but I think they wanted to get rid of me and they found a reason.(I said "hell" in the classroom.)...

I've never liked therapy/counseling/whichever one just prescribes medicine left and right. I have been burned, hurt and betrayed by too many to ever want to go again. One of them broke confidentiality directly in front of me. I don't have health insurance so I don't even know if I could get...

Pardon me if the answers are obvious but ever since you brought up hypnosis and now that my boyfriend is mentioning some hypnosis app he wants me to download and try, I have something to ask. Is self-help hypnosis safe? You know..."it's okay to let go, it's okay to relax" kind of stuff? I have...

@UniversalBeing oops! Sorry about that. I often read the post and fail to look at the actual poster's username. How embarrassing! My (ex, short-term) therapist asked me to research EMDR before we'd begin and we were to get back together and discuss it. She freaked me out by describing it, what...

I have no doubt it can be very effective and helpful for many, many people. I'm too scared, personally. I fear there's more in my memory banks than I'm willing to discover. I'm curious how self meditation works out for the original poster... That seems far safer than self-EMDR type therapies.

I also suggest treading carefully. The first and only therapist I've had to suggest EMDR said if someone goes into hypnosis, they need to be carefully monitored because of the high risks. I didn't go through with it because I was scared of going to that part of my brain. She mentioned people are...

I guess I could try that. This feels absurd and weird. "LEMON! LEMON!"

Good points. He isn't my therapist so disclosing the graphic stuff is probably not a good idea. I don't want him thinking he can fix me, or question me, or see me as fragile and unable to handle things. I appreciate your response, especially coming from the other side. Balancing the two is...

That is some very unfortunate and saddening news! I hope you are able to find happiness and comfort with whatever happens along the way. You deserve someone supportive and good to you and I hope you can find that. I'm always up for honesty with my boyfriend, I just don't know what is...

My boyfriend is the same; supportive of my current emotion. For example, the other day, I was having just a rough few hours, feeling very sad. I kept it together but then I just started to cry. He couldn't see me at the initial moment but he started saying he knows I would be a good mom, asked...