Recent content by Orchid1818

I should note neither of us have dated anyone else since we split.

Well 9 months ago my combat vet and I split up. He said he had anxiety and he thought it would be best that we weren't together. It's been 9 months and I have done alot of work on myself and past issues. Anyways we have been in contact and he called me. We talked on the phone for several hours...

I do want to note this was the first time I've really tried therapy. And the very 1st time I disclosed the assault and sexual assault to a therapist. So it has been a learning curve for me. Which is why it's great to know what questions I should be asking the next time around.

Great advice. I definitely do need to work on speaking up for myself. It truly is hard to find a good therapist.

That's what I was thinking, but I guess needed confirmation it's not just me. She did also drudge up something in EMDR and then left it opened up at the end of the appointment. She then was so busy and I couldn't finish the session till 3 weeks later. In those 3 weeks my anxiety was sky high, I...

I would, but had to stop seeing her as anytime I asked if she had appointments available she was always "booked" months out and said she had higher priority clients.

I had been going to therapy for my anxiety. We went over a couple assaults that had happened in the past with emdr. I was confronted recently with a guy who tried to attack me when I was alone in my car. I got away. Even though nothing came of it. It freaked me out and re triggered my fears. I...

I've been using EMDR, some sessions are great, some open up a bag of pain and grief that I feel drained from for weeks at a time. And I know my traumas aren't the most severe stories ever. But it's still draining. And asking how one is feeling is not a simple answer, you could be confused...

This story is very familiar to mine and and I have struggled calling it what it was because it was force with fingers not a penis. And I kept thinking others go thru worse so I shouldn't be traumatized by it.

I was on a group too, when I was with my now ex whom I miss so much. However he wasn't like any of those men the women described. They discussed physical abuse and other forms of abuse. I feel that even though one might have combat PTSD, that doesn't mean you become a narcissist abuser. I left...

Yes about two months ago I posted about isolation from my veteran and a cancellation of our vaca. Shortly after he ended things bc he said he felt too much anxiety. I started therapy when I was with him but didn't start emdr for addressing my early life trauma. So we broke up and then I started...

I do walk my dog a lot and that helps. Lately I'm not even happy doing my hobbies. Again because they involve being around people and having to look happy. Which is draining. I also find myself thinking about the trauma a lot now. I hope that's just my mind working thru it.

Me too movement bothers me and triggered me at the same time. I always think well if everyone else is saying me too, how come I ended up with a world of anxiety and they are all fine. But I think it's like you said, they are saying "me too" to getting an unwanted hug and 99.99999% of population...

Thank you for simply understanding no one gets it around me. I was actually a supporter of a veteran then we broke up and thru therapy I learned I actually wasn't at all dealing with a trauma of my own past. And I saw how I triggered him and and how it affected my relationship and after the...

I feel so drained from emdr. Does anyone feel the same? Also I am not happy for other peoples happiness right now. After sessions I want to be left alone. Not talk to anyone. And I'm tired of people saying omg how are you and feeling like I have to respond with excitement about their life. Emdr...