Recent content by parrotthepolly

Hungry and helpless (but I'm on a diet so it must be a good thing)!

Not very good just as it was for weeks on end but I believe last time I slept will be one of the last times I sleep "well" enough.

Few purple grapes and 5 persimmons hours ago

Sounds like it's the emotions triggering the crying spells. Happiness can also be overwhelming or a sudden change when you've been depressed for too long and you just wanna calm down and let it out somehow. For me I've been feeling extremely angry and irritable with most of my response to bad...

95g smoke flavoured tuna - 104 cals 85g mussels in oil - 132 cals

My arm.

I don't believe there is much of me since I don't enjoy most things in life due to being in survival mode for a few decades with dissociation. Hate being asked to "tell me about yourself", like at least ask me something! It's like I'm existing to avoid existing at this point. I don't give a...

I continue hurting myself of course! But honestly it doesn't always "hurt" but it's still miserable

If it helps, I definitely think you're worthy of getting because you're trying! I would never wanna be near a therapist myself but it's great it works for some. I think the majority of people matter and deserve a better life. If anyone is actually broken it's me since I don't really "take care"...

Absolute crap. Never been worse but I can see it get MUCH worse than this.

2 white bread rolls (bigger than dinner rolls) with bacon cubes, a bit of cheese and herbs, from Baker's Delight Didn't realise it was like 700 calories but I was so hungry I didn't care, it already tastes delicious and when I'm starving it's just amazing!

Welcome! I can relate to a lot of what you wrote, almost everything, especially with having a "mother" who never felt motherly, I've recently learnt to accept that they aren't required to love their kids or even like them I guess, just to provide for them until they turn 18. A mother is simply...

Oatmeal mixed with full cream cow's milk or even water. I swear it has a smell even just cooked with water and nothing else.

Monster Ultra Fiesta Mango flavoured - 14 cals which an acquaintance brought for me

Welcome! Unfortunately it's very normal for people who haven't been through trauma to not understand why it leaves someone ... different? like they're not themselves anymore.