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My brother also called me fat even when I was anorexic too. I wish I could be on good terms with him, but he is so verbally abusive and has no regard for other peoples' feelings, so I just stopped talking to him and so did my sister. I remember prior to sharing an apartment with him, we would...

@Chava: I don't know; maybe. I know that there are only two people in my life who I've "hated" before (not constantly, but at one time or another) and those are my horrible teacher and my brother, because they didn't treat me with normal human respect and they made me feel horribly about myself...

Thank you for the comforting advice, seeing as how I really don't want to believe that I have ptsd, especially after being told by a mental therapist that I do. I'm not gonna deny that I have some type of anxiety problem, but it's good to know that the awful stuff I went through, though...

Just to be clear, I'm not a troll or trying to seek attention or information for a novel. If I didn't have these concerns, or symptoms that I never had before in my life, then I would be doing other things than posting on here. I admit that I can feel really passionately about some things, and...

Being bullied by children your own age would certainly be considered a normal part of growing up, even though it could end up being damaging to someone's self esteem. But when you're used to the classroom being a normal, safe learning environment and suddenly you're thrown into a situation where...

It's so not fair. I mean, yeah I was in a good mood last night and this morning, but then I fell back out of the present time into my own little faraway world and have just been so depressed all afternoon and evening. I thought I was at peace with being diagnosed with ptsd, but I'm not. I don't...

and you know that talking to someone about these memories that you'd rather keep hidden away is the only way to really heal from them, but it's hard writing about them... and your symptoms start to really subside, for however long, and you feel like you're in a good place even though they will...

Well, it was my first night of being diagnosed (by one person anyway) with ptsd, and thinking about what that meant, and I think I finally came to peace with it and was even glad that someone had determined what all my symptoms were meaning. Also, not that I had any real control over this, but...

Woohoo. I just worked some on my novel for the first time in days. It's 1:30 am and usually I can't write so late at night because my brain turns to mush. But it actually worked, and I was able to focus, which is surprising, since I had just spent about 4 hours of watching TV and being able to...

I can handle the memories as long as there's no emotional attachment to them and I'm not disconnected with reality. I just wanna be fully aware of my surroundings. All I know is that I've come out of these dissociation phases or whatever they're called a couple times in the past, and I can only...

I pretty much did that in my intro. I really don't like going into details. It's just not fair though. Not to sound narcissistic (believe me, I'm anything but confident or proud of who I am right now) but I have so much potential, and now I feel like I just won't be able to do the things I love...

Just finished my consultation a couple hours ago, and I was kind of surprised at the outcome. Even though I know my symptoms have been pointing to PTSD, I was hoping that she would say what a lot of people on here have been telling me, that what I have is some type of anxiety disorder instead of...

Btw in the title I meant "consultation." And that's true. I don't have to go into every detail; just have to tell her my symptoms and give some information about what I know is causing them.

@joeylittle: Thank you. I'm worried about that too, because her free consultation lasts for only 30 minutes, and there's so much I have to talk about, although I don't want to right away. And I probably won't be able to meet with her again till next week, and that's a long time when I'm feeling...

I guess I am a little hopeful. It says she deals with dissociative disorders, and I'm pretty sure that's what I'm experiencing right now, because I think I have cptsd due to being in a harmful and hostile environment for a long period of time. I had to go there every day, and there was no way...