Recent content by Punky143

It's been awhile since I've been on and in my opinion that's a good thing. But, here I am, back again and not feeling very optimistic. A few months ago I changed my medication provider hoping to find someone who can work collaboratively with me- educate me about what medications are used for...

I'm being assessed by a new psych med provider. I had my first appt that lasted 2 hours and it was exhausting but beneficial. I have a complex list of already diagnosed disorders including, general anxious disorder with psychotic features, major depression disorder, borderline personality...

Thank you for the information. This is a psych med appt and I too plan on giving a very brief mention of having parts and how it effects me daily. If I don't then I can only imagine how confusing I'd sound. Take care

I'm meeting with a new med provider this week. I'm so nervous about so many things. I have DID parts and as much as I want to believe they won't come with me that just won't be the case. Im not the kind of person who just tells all. It's taken the parts years to slowly open up to my therapist...

I've been married over 20 years and although our relationship began with a lot of affection, throughout the years it's dwindled to the point I no longer like it. Throughout the years I've discovered I have unprocessed childhood trauma that's changed who I am. I have been working on it with my...

Why is my marriage failing? Many reasons. I've been in individual counseling for over 15 years learning how to deal with life's ups and downs, how to find a voice when all I've ever done is remain quiet and internalize to my detriment. I've learned skills, found my voice and worked hard to be a...

It's becoming more apparent to me that my husband has a huge fear of abandonment. Overtime this has negatively effected our marriage. Part of the problem exists because he doesn't believe in mental health treatment and has said he doesn't need to pay someone just to get a diagnosis. Because of...

My world will be empty soon. My one and only daughter will be gone for a week and missing Thanksgiving for the first time. I already struggle with major depression as well as many other dx. But this event most certainly has increased the symptoms. Although she's 19, she is my one and only child...

I've struggled with my parts who become triggered easily by noise, smell, tactile, visual and ole factory hallucinations. I've tried creating safe places for them to go when things are tough and I need to accomplish tasks. This has become a problem at work and has left to disorganization, land...

It's horrible. Major Depressive Disorder and psychosis. It's taking hours away from my day. Some of my DID parts are 100% certain what we see and hear. They look up all the things that counts be the cause. But. No one believes us. Our medical doctor checked us and found nothing. I've...

I thought about opening my own savings account and depositing a portion of my paycheck into it. That way I can have money saved for things that come up and the feeling of control because no one else can spend it. Anytime I've pushed back to do what I really want to do is met with his body...

I have a very hard time with confrontation. I don't even get to say one sentence before he already has a rebuttal and will go on justifying why he's correct. It's very triggering for me and I've never been a fast thinker and he's the opposite. I'd like to think I know what he's trying to say but...

When did my husband change or are we more aware of it? The comments and ways of speaking to us bet little us, push us aside, less worthy of doing things, even when no money is spent. Declaring he's the patriarch of the family. He gets to decide everything. Yet, he doesn't think about me even...

I'm not certain when it got worse but slowly and quietly. With the shorter days happening it feels like we're DID) being suffocated. My daughter is growing up, my father is distant from my sister and brother and always posts pictures of him, his wife and her child. Invitations to get together...

I'd love to go back 15 years ago and be a better mother to my only child. Show her more love, engage more with her. But, I can't. I have a lot of regrets but I will say she's a good 19 year old with commendable qualities. This will be my first Thanksgiving without my child. She is traveling to...