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@scout86 I had met my current boyfriend before I divorced my ex. My ex and I were living with my parents for about 6 months so he wasn't physically abusive at the time. He couldn't with my parents always home (they are retired) because they didn't know about it and would have sent him to jail if...

I don't know how my post came across that I blame my ex for all of my life's crises. The only mention of my ex was my low self esteem. I don't think I was conceited before I met my ex, but I did think well of myself. But after 7 years of being beat up and told how worthless I am and if I was...

My therapist didn't do anything that upset me. It was my boyfriend having an argument with her. I don't like going without my boyfriend. It is really hard for me to talk about my past. I used to be able to talk very vaguely about my past with her but now that she wants more details it has been...

I am quitting therapy. I cancelled my appointment last week. Actually, I begged my boyfriend to call and cancel it for me because I was terrified of doing it myself. I don't like confrontation or arguments or anything like that. My boyfriend was with me at my last appointment and they had gotten...

I would be happy to look at it if you would like. I'm not an author but I would be glad to give any feedback where I can.

I froze up again yesterday and couldn't tell her. I don't know what's wrong with me. The entire appointment was awful. It is supposed to be a 45 min appointment. I was her last one for the day and it ended up going almost 3 hours. There were a few times in the appointment I felt like I should...

I have been really depressed lately. I hate everything about myself. The only reason I'm still here is because of my kids. If I didn't have them I would have ended it all a long time ago. My ex physically and mentally abused me for 7 years. The mental abuse has been by far the hardest to get...

Thank you all for your support. I'm just so tired of feeling this way. It's always on my mind. I am going to try talking to my therapist about it. I feel so ashamed for feeling this way. I'm not sure how I will talk to her about it but I will try.

I hate myself. Everything I do is wrong. Everything I say is wrong. Everything I think is wrong. What kind of person goes back to a guy who beat them? I did it twice. I was finally out, he was in jail and I was free. So what did I do? I stupidly took him back. Asked the judge to drop the...

I went on vacation last week with my boyfriend to visit his family. It was the first time meeting his family. We have been dating for about 10 months now. The week went great. Most people can't tell, but I spend most of my days thinking about my past and the abuse that I went through. It feels...

I have nightmares a lot but they are usually about stuff that have never happened but I'm afraid could happen. Like one of them is my ex breaking into my house or something like that.. the nightmare I had a few nights ago was really weird though. There are a lot of things that my ex did to me...