Recent content by Raven

Since when do men care about women being 15 lbs overweight? As a woman with a perpetual beer gut muffin top thing that I don't care enough about to fix, I can tell you that they don't even seem to notice stuff like that. Still, if my husband said, "Do you need to eat that?" I would resist the...

(Apparently, it takes me three months to eat.) Two and a half years later, my marriage failed spectacularly. I was living in Western New York, about an hour and a half from where Gunpowder resided with his parents while he saved up for a down payment because f*ck renting. We were Facebook...

Hawaii, 2012 He told me I smell like gunpowder and and treason. "You smell like gunpowder and treason," he said, his first words to me with a smile that, from the way it met his brown eyes, I could tell he was boring, but in a pleasant way. A perfume I still wear sometimes that smells of...

Apparently, I can't edit my posts on the mobile site. If I do, I'll burn someone who I really don't want to hurt. I think he doesn't want the war inside, and he's perfectly happy to shut it out and leave it in the f*cking sandbox. He has the stable LEO career, the sensible car, the domestic...

Yes. I'm a phoenix. I spectacularly self-destruct and then I dust the ashes off, carry on, and find a way to become stable and successful for a while until I get bored again. Then the cycle repeats ad nauseum. I am doing better than ever these days, which is why I haven't been around this...

Also: Not that I would encourage anyone to pick up a smoking habit because it's really unhealthy, but have you thought about just stepping out and having a cigarette or two when you feel yourself starting to escalate? Vaping soothes my nerves, and I would suggest an ecigarette over a real...

Yes and no. I was married for two and a half years to an abusive, mentally ill cumstain. I cheated on him at the very end because I just stopped caring. I don't believe that the infidelity was caused by my PTSD, at least not by combat PTSD. Maybe I had some kind of PTSD from him holding me and...

Demon eyes? Demonize? I forgot I read the original post over a year ago and replied before. I was going to ask why you think you're such a shitty person in the here and now. And that's the crux of it. I'm not that person anymore--that person who is unworthy of love, or understanding, or...

Do you actually fantasize about doing these things? There are people I want to punch, but that doesn't mean I want to drill holes in their kidneys and f*ck said holes until they die. You should get help, stat.

Given my anxiety and all that, it happens all the time. I can't handle someone coming into my home and f*cking with my precious order but he's hot so I get over it eventually.

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Get your ass to the range. ETA: Please don't come to WNY. It's miserable here. Why the f*ck are there no hills? Why haven't these people heard of hills? And we had two tornadoes yesterday. Oh, and the gun laws are bullshit. I too wish to run east sometimes, back to the City that kills the weak...