Recent content by RavenWine

I saw a new therapist probably about a month ago now and have not seen her since because of what's going on in the world. My abuser is still alive, as far as I know and he has ways to get ahold of me if he could. I've blocked him on social media but he could always make a new account to contact...

The more I get comfortable with myself and let my guard down, I keep getting this feeling in the back of my mind that my abuser is going to try to contact me any day now and it will ruin my progress. I keep hearing thoughts in my mind about how if knew I was doing something he wouldn't approve...

I don't even have a therapist so I wouldn't know. But I feel like if you trust your therapist enough, just tell them you are triggered at night if there's loud noises. I'm sure they'll be super helpful to you. It's nothing to be ashamed about ?

No I'm not. I'm having a hard time just making a phone call to get an appointment at all. I just got a c-ptsd workbook though to try out and hope it gives me a bit of will to pick up the phone

This guy I was seeing no longer wants me around. I feel like my PTSD pushed him away. There were days when if he didn't talk to me all day, I would panic and think he didn't want me around anymore. He definitely got sick of that stuff cause he said he wasn't letting me back into his life after...

Sometimes I get so anxious that when this person I really like and have been seeing doesn't say anything to me for a day, that they're just done with me. And sometimes I'll say nothing to them or then other days, like yesterday, I kept wondering what I did wrong. And I really felt like they were...

One of my triggers is loud noises at night. Especially after 10pm because anytime after 10pm is usually when I'd want to try to go to bed. My abuser would play loud tv or music or just talk and not let me sleep. There's nothing I could do to try to sleep besides leave the room and try to sleep...

Thank you. I'm just like okay yeah I get it I have herpes and did something f*cked up to someone. Over explaining it to me doesn't really help. I'm more concerned about the fact that I did something self destructive that harmed another person, one who also is mentally unstable. I know they're...

Everything you said I already am aware of. I take medication for suppression daily. I've done my research and I don't just have cold sores because it's spread to my past sexual partner who went down on me so now I have both types of herpes. But I don't often have break outs because I've had it...

No my parents weren't abusive at all. It was contracted at some point when I was younger by them because I had always had cold sores as a young kid. I'm assuming it was contracted either at birth which can happen or by one of them kissing me when they had an outbreak. A lot of people don't even...

Thank you for your well thought out response. It honestly really helps me get an insight into my behavior. I already have been thinking I'm toxic for this person I'm seeing. He has mental health issues of his own as well, so I feel like that's why he didn't just instantly cut me out of his life...

Those are definitely red flags. I have the same issue as you. I'm trying to figure out if there are any red flags with the guy I've been seeing. I feel like I mostly have been the only one to show red flags but he's said a few things that make me wonder. He does seem to be careful with me though...

I will tell anyone about my PTSD and depression. I won't just tell anyone about my abusive past right away. It took me time to open up to my friends and family about it but it gets easier to discuss and helps me not feel as alone about it

I was in an abusive relationship for almost ten years, and this past March stopped contact entirely which took a lot for me to do. I've recently been trying to meet people and see what's out there. I've been seeing this guy for about two months now and a few things have already happened, mostly...