Recent content by reddy4765

is this the first time he's hit you? and have you spoken to your doc re: your psychotic symptoms and social anxiety? that's where i'd start. wishing you well.

I have the same thing: chronic fatigue syndrome. as snafu said there's no help for it, so it doesn't reallly matter if you see a doc or not. some of us have had some help with antivirals, etc, but there is no full recovery. not sure if connection with ptsd either, besides the general poor...

I think I'm supposed to respond to this why read that post as disrespectful when it clearly isn't? but let's be honest, this is what's really offending you. why are you picking on someone who has been forced to grapple with the same situation without your own resources? I find that...

thanks to everyone who wrote. I'm grappling with the fact that I don't really know what happened. several years all seem like a blur. I remember vaguely a day I visited the emergency room for a migraine, and not having any medication for it because I didn't know I didn't have to visit the doc...

really? in a lot of ways I feel like my lack of supportive relationships (and inability to engage in them) is at least partially responsible for my chronic feelings of being rundown, needing solitude & solace. I don't think anything good came out of the abuse: it screwed up my body and my...

what did you have? they tried to gaslight me too, it was terrible. my immune system is in the toilet as well, I assume it's some epigenetic consequence of growing up under severe stress, or maybe endorcrine burnout. I never believed them tho, just was too sick and didn't have the resources to...

wow! how did they get away with that?! glad to be speaking to someone who can relate.

I think I've finally realized why I resent kids so much. I think for a lot of people childhood is a time of easy narcissism, a chance to be loved and adored by parents looking for an excuse to live vicariously thru someone else. in my family, it was about being terrorized by a mentally ill...

what are some of your friend's past abuses towards you?

thanks to all for the support. I am really not sure how to write about this as I don't really have access to all of what happened and I think I don't really want access. honestly at this point I'm not even sure that I have ptsd anymore: I don't tend to feel nervous, I'm not on edge, the only...

I'm clearly very not-not-rich then. looking forward to sequestration whenever that kicks in. how nice it must be to be able to treat your medical and psychological problems!

I have three things to talk about: 1. getting the shit beaten out of me as a kid thanks to mentally ill mom. 2. coming down with severe ME, going without food heat and medicine, and having the shit simultaneously beat out of me. 3. never, ever, ever being believed. docs think that the fatigue...

@Chava, that's hilarious! as if! therapy is for rich people. so, apparently, is seeing the doc.

spent three years being bedridden barely able to cook, clean, run errands, often not able to at all. was abused thru a period of this time. I'm going on nearly a decade of being sick, and it's had a profound impact on my life, and yet there are entire years which are gone for me; I am unable...

@fogshots, the entirety of mommie dearest had me mesmerized. my mom never cared abt my intellectual or emotional development although as a child I showed signs of intellectual giftedness. of course the child abuse has taken care of most of that, but that which remains seems to exist just to...