Recent content by Reds

I guess you'll never know until you take action. I took time off work once and it didn't work for me, it made me worse. I had nothing to keep me busy so I was absorbed in my thoughts all day everyday. Being at work is hard but it allows me to get out of my head. But it might work differently...

No, I haven't. I will brig it up with her so we can discuss it more. Maybe then I'll know why I react this way. Thanks Shimmerz

@Ayesha i can't change my t now, I'm just going through a lot right now and I need someone who knows and understands me. I'm considering getting a new t once things have settled and are back to 'normal'. @Lemontree I'm not sure, but my guess is that it's because my abuser appeared to be a...

I've been going through some difficult time this past few days, my t has been really kind and giving me all the support I need. Now, here's a sad story of my life: the kinder you are to me the horrible I will be to you. I know that doesn't sound good, but I find that every time I'm going through...

Today is my last day with my current employer, I have mixed feelings about leaving. I generally don't do well with change, I like things to remain the same. I'm now struggling to go in to the office building to get my belongings, everyone would be wanting to say goodbye. They were all so good...

Not sure if I should start a new thread or just add to this one. I emailed my t about the incident yesterday and told her that I wanted my mom to stop. I asked t if I could call my my mom during our session so I have someone around when I ask my her to stop telling me about my abuser. I'm happy...

It's something I need to go through, I have to change my t but I'm scared. I keep thinking what if I find a t that doesn't understand me at all. I also need a t I can talk to about leaving my current t. I'm really interested to know how it'd go with you. Keep us posted.

I often try to do something which allows me to quiet my mind, like painting. It often requires me to focus and shut out all the external and other noises. All that I see and feel is color, I was just writing in my diary this morning about how I enjoy the feeling I get from painting.

I hope that the rest of your day is better and kinder. Happy birthday and many more happy years ahead.... Hold on to that hope:hug:

Thank you for all your comments, @stenni I'm thinking about writing that sentence and practice saying it. After spending some hours in hiding I feel much better now, I just hope it won't happen again tomorrow. Right now I would actually appreciate a week of not hearing about him. I need...

I will try to explain what I am going through briefly, my story is that I was sexually abused and a few years ago I decided to tell my parents about it. my mother said: if it's no longer happening then there's nothing to discuss, my father asked me why I allowed the abuser to abuse me. This was...

@stenni I've been feeling really strange like I am not myself. so i decided to reduce my dose and only take them before bed but I would still wake up feeling sluggish. Today I decided to stop taking them and I feel much better. I was also able to do some work, I hadn't done anything from the...

She's added Topalex to everything else that I'm taking. Maybe it is placebo effect, will give it a week and see how I feel then

I've always wanted to go back to dancing but I'm not sure if I'm brave enough. I'll definitely give it a thought, I would really like to dance again

I have been put on new meds from yesterday and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I feel a little out of of space, like I'm not my normal self. Unaware of my surroundings, I have a little to care about. I emailed my doc and she said I should give the meds a week and I will get used to it. I have...