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I started therapy in late Feb of 2020. I think I had one or two sessions in person. There are definitely cons but there were also cons to in person therapy. I look at it more as shifting the pain points. I think a lot of people really focus on all the bad parts of virtual and forgot that therapy...

I have done therapy both ways. When I was young I was out with the types of trauma from day one. We were really focusing on stress tolerance and emotional regulation. I went out in the world and did my thing for 20ish years and am back in therapy due to a PTSD relapse. This time I have found it...

I can’t put my finger exactly on it but it read as if your relationships are very transactional. It seems that you are saying you don’t expect anything in return but then you list all the things you want in return. There’s a subtle difference between having clear expectations of your needs in a...

Knowing how hard it’s been for my after having parents die by suicide. Not wanting to do that to other people in my life.

It’s nice you are having a good experience. I work in the provider side of things as well (and have for 20+ years). For many insurance does dictate what is medically necessary.

I’m in the US and we don’t have the number of visit limits anymore. However it does need to be deemed medically necessary and insurance gets to decide that. They make it hard for therapists to justify. And if you look like you’re functioning from the outside- guess what increased therapy isn’t...

I wish I had some words of wisdom. I just came to say you’re not alone. I agree with everyone who’s saying we need something between PHP/IOP and once a week. I’m very functional from work done in my youth in more intensive programs. As an adult I had more trauma piled on and go through phases...

We watched Taskmaster. It’s a British game show. I’m generally not into game shows but I love British comedy. I cried laughing practically every episode. I’ve been watching Broad City a very raunchy woman centric show about a pair of 20 something friends. I’m 40s but it reminds me of a few of...

I was able to talk a bit more directly about how I’ve been feeling. I also asked for extra sessions for the next few weeks. That was really really hard. It took a long time before I would take an extra session when offered. Now three years in I asked for it. I feel icky about it but we spent...

Many of us have the complication of parents who showed us that asking for help is bad, it's a manipulation, and is going to end in abuse. It is much safer to be the one offering to help. I can control that. COVID sucked out my ability to just give and has forced me to be on the receiving end of...

Thank you all so much. It sounds like a lot of you also have a hard time talking about "it" when you actually feel serious. I am grateful you all are here. I have drifted to lurking but this place gives me somewhere that I don't have to sugar coat things. You have seen it through being here or...

Thank you. Your last point is a good one. It’s all so hard. I feel like I make progress then hit a wall. We have an appointment tomrorow

A big part of why I don’t want to tell her is that I don’t want to recreate the pattern of my mother who constantly threatened suicide and in the end honestly did it as a big f*ck you to me. The other part is that it gives up some of my power. It’s like the final thing to tell her that admits...

Disclaimer: I’m perfectly safe right now. Does anyone else struggle with telling anyone when the suicide pull is strong? It seems like a lot of people I know are able to tell their therapist, friends, half of Facebook when they are feeling like this. have attempted once 20+ years ago. I didn’t...

Hi there- I am so sorry to read about another nurse who has been crushed during covid. I am a nurse as well. I also started out in solid organ transplant and moved to a nursing supervisor role in a clinic after about three years in transplant. I LOVED transplant work but my body didn't hold up...