Recent content by Roland

For me, I dreaded being female because in my framework growing up, males don't get sexualized. They don't get raped, they can't get pregnant from rape, they are physically stronger/bigger than women typically. So when I was a teenager, I felt a sense of envy for that. But I grew to hate and fear...

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I'm so sorry 💔 I'll pray for them.

Funny, I have dyscalculia so I hate math and numbers but I have a lot of associations with numbers. Like when I see 9:09 on the clock, I think of my son because that's what time he was born. I have a number, my brother has a number, my husband always sees 1107 everywhere. If you tell me a...

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I worry my oversharing on this forum will allow others to find me and connect that this account is mine.

Thank you very much

My natural state is couch potato, however I feel it when I don't workout. My body is stiff and tense, I have a knot in my lower back, my mind doesn't focus and it's like foggy, etc. So really what motivates me is wanting to feel better. I never went back to pre-pregnancy weight and I'm a little...

Hey nothing wrong with distraction. I've been going through a rough time lately as well and it's been a lot of TV in between active processing (talking, writing, painting). I think sometimes the pressure to relax can stress you out. One thing I do if I'm really bad is stay up really late...

That's definitely true. I have done a ten minute one an hour or two before bed and then couldn't fall asleep. However, if you do it as you're going to sleep you may find it ushers you into a full deep sleep. At least that's what happens with me!

I totally get that. When you're overwhelmed, all the things that'd help you feel out of reach, forgotten, unnatural. I love using yoga nidra as a power nap, but it also helps me go to sleep if I can't sleep. I've used a long one and feel asleep before it was over. Maybe try it again?

When I can't sleep or can't calm down, I do yoga nidra meditation. You'd be amazed. Just look one up on YouTube. There's short ten minutes ones and hour long ones. Even a short one is enough to reset your nervous system. Tea yes, but specifically chamomile or chamomile/lavender. That relaxes...

Pop that one onto the cognitive distortions thread. That isn't true, but it may feel that way.

Yeah probably, compounded with stress and drugs. I took morphine and fentanyl each once, and I took Percocet and oxycodone back to back.

Yes totally. I did research beforehand but didn't know exactly how they would do it. But then when I'm sitting there and the nurse is explaining everything I just felt like totally unable to comprehend what she was saying. Maybe it was her communication style or maybe the oxycodone was affecting...