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    Sadielady3's Diary

    Today's Christmas wasn't the worst I've ever had nor was it the best. Not sure what Christmas I'd call the best though, to be honest. I don't really have happy memories about Christmas- it's a day filled with material objects and expectations. But I survived another one and that's what counts...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    I saw my T last Thursday and again this past Wednesday. Last week on Thursday, we did EMDR to process the event with the abusive nurse. I was left feeling shamed that I couldn't handle it on my own but still overall felt better after the session. When I saw him again on Wednesday, I told him how...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    I haven't written here in a long time. I was doing really well for awhile and writing so much for grad school that I just didn't have the pull. But now I'm not doing well at all and am between classes so I figured it's time to start writing again. My life itself is going really well. I just...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    I haven't written here for awhile because I've been writing so much for grad school that writing is the last thing I want to do some days. But I do want to get back into the habit of journaling- I think it's helpful. Grad school is amazing and so far I really love it. I'm well on track to...
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    Bipolar C-PTSD vs. Bipolar

    @Autumnsirens thank you for your response. I also have a long story with my mental health but, unlike you, I was denied treatment at all until I got to college because my mother doesn't believe in mental illness. And, even then, my counseling experience in college was at the school's...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    Went to my therapy session with my T yesterday. I told him that I had felt triggered by the last session but I tried hard to be clear that I wasn't angry at him, blamed him in any way, nor that I thought he said anything that I disagreed with. He acknowledged that he had been much more...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    Went to physical therapy on Saturday and it went well. I'm progressing along well and they think one more session at the end of August ought to do it. Saw my BHT on Sunday morning. We discussed the conversation with my T for most of the session and she says that he overstepped as a...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    I've been thinking things over all day and I've decided that it's time to tell mom about grad school. I figure this for a few reasons. First, she's going to find out anyway that I'm going to go back to school to become a therapist. I figure it's never going to go over well but it might go...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    I've been shame spiraling since Friday. I had my regular monthly therapy appointment with my T. I didn't want to go because I felt like I had nothing worth talking about. I was mostly anxious about finding a job and starting school but there's not really much to discuss there. Mom called me...
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    Intensive EMDR

    I'm high on the anxiety scale these days. I quit my job actually last week because through doing EMDR, I started to realize how deeply teaching was affecting me. I'm going to go to grad school in the fall to become a therapist. I've been having some vestibular issues the past couple of months...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    Well, it's been a crazy week. I had my first orientation for grad school (several more sessions to come) on Wednesday and was left feeling overwhelmed and rather scared. My reaction to this? Turned around and officially quit my job. So by Wednesday night I was really losing my shit. On...
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    Sadielady3's Diary

    It's been awhile since I've been on here because of my vision issues. They think I have either an inner ear inflammation or vestibular migraines. It's been well over a month of medical appointments (and I've been through a lot of specialists at this point) and they're still not quite sure...
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    Bipolar C-PTSD vs. Bipolar

    I'm already on Gabapentin for anxiety. It might be worth exploring an additional med once my physical medical issues are dealt with.
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    Bipolar C-PTSD vs. Bipolar

    Brief update- my psychiatrist actually has been emailing back and forth with me today. Not sure why on a national holiday (maybe she's on call or something) but still good to have the conversation. She had me answer a bunch of questions and based on my answers thinks that bipolar is unlikely...
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    Bipolar C-PTSD vs. Bipolar

    @joeylittle Thank you for sharing your personal story. I did find that helpful. I have what I think is an excellent psychiatrist. She really does listen to me. When I was first referred to her by my therapist, she actually really listened to everything I had to say. She set my primary...
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