Recent content by Sam

Decisions of any kind feel impossible for me too. I block out having to make any and zone into whatever is in front of me. PTSD does that too me and also grief.

I don’t think there is a way. It’s all compounded by more or different grief. For me it hits when I least expect and hits hard. I just try my best to get through it. I do take comfort in knowing that he is not around to hurt me. I’m in therapy and I journal and meditate and sometimes that helps...

My husband was abusive too. He died in 2021 . It was very challenging and also a relief. I understand the guilt and also the anger. Please be self kind.

You are making sense. Somehow for me fresh grief and ptsd open up all kinds of shit. It seems like the grief just stacks up and more old grief joins it. It makes me feel very emotionally dysregulated. A hare trigger of something weird can do it. I agree that breathing exercises help...

Please hang in there. We are all going through awful shit. I believe it will shift , at some point ♥️

I understand this very clearly. I am in a similar place. I consider myself to be exiting with grace and my way of love. My ex has addiction issues and he is not given a free pass on any of his rotten behavior. I do understand addiction though and have empathy. I am helping him move to a sober...

I am sad to hear about this. The important thing is that you had a picture of a very important moment to you . I hope you can focus on your own strength. The rapist/abuser needs no part in your accomplishments.

No advice, just be kind to yourself so you don’t end up with shitty self esteem.

Thank you for the thoughts. It’s a long waiting list for therapists here.

My heart goes out to you. Having had concussions and a brain tumor removed I understand the physiological stuff. I think you should have a brain specific neurologist meet with you. It could shed light on some stuff. Just a thought. Relationships are hard even when both parties have lessor...

Thank you for kind and wise words. I do have PTSD diagnosed from many other issues created by my late husbands volatile personality and his addictions. I’m trying to get into therapy again but it’s going slowly.

You’re right to cut it off. Relationships are really hard.

Please stay on your antidepressant if it’s helping you. You can see if another one has less sexual side effects. Please take care of you first and then the you and he.

My boyfriend of 3 years choked me last in a drunken rage. I called police and he is there waiting for judge. Why do I feel guilty?