Recent content by Sam115

Hello everyone. I know I said I was getting off this site but I had to come back here and apologize to everyone. When I wrote this post I was so hurt about everything that was happening in my world. I was already lonely because I moved somewhere completely new and she was a source of support at...

From coming to this site I realize now that I was pretty harsh when I was told not to contact my gf. Then again, I don't think it's an excuse to completely ignore someone you know is worried about you for weeks let alone months. I completely understand needing space. Space is a week or two tops...

That's because that's what I hope for vs what's really happening. I want her to be happy and safe and no I'm not dire pecking her boundaries. She literally told me today that she needed no contact and so I purposely deleted the app we were talking on so I wouldn't be tempted. She can call if she...

I still do not see what the issue is. She said no contact. I am not talking to her.

I am not even disrespecting her boundaries ...chill out. I am leaving her alone. I came here to get some advice on how to deal with a first time PTSD relationship not to be ridiculed by those who do have it. If I didn't care about her and our relationship I wouldn't be here. Anyone would be...

You need to get out of there ASAP. That behavior will happen again!

I don't think I do at least. I've gone through therapy for years but it seems useless sometimes since I can't remember a lot of my childhood...or a lot of things actually. I just know that my problems show in my relationships. I am caring though. Sometimes too caring.

I do not have PTSD

This might just be me being desperate at this point, but if I was nothing but supportive for three weeks then sort of lashed out when I was told not to contact her because she is "f*cked up right now" would you disregard all the care and support I put in previously? My biggest fear is that my...

Thanks you so much Taylor30313. That meant a lot.it sounds kind of sick to say but I actually viewed her disease as a way to connect with her like I couldn't connect with anyone else. All my past relationships have been with healthy people and never thought they understood real trauma. She's...

That makes sense. I still feel a little cheated...I have some issues of my own (childhood abuse) and I told her about it after I pushed her away for a couple days. I felt so (and still feel) so lost sometimes that I almost wanted to push her away for good. Then I realized that I didn't want to...

I guess I still have hope because I have read stories of people coming around once they have healed on their own. I know for right now we cannot be in a relationship. She is still recovering and , frankly, I don't think I am ready to handle this type of relationship right now unless I know she...

Justmehere don't tell me that I'm bullshitting anything. I was concerned for her. I really was. I still care for her. I am greatly relieved that she is alive and well.

I appreciate your input joeylittle. I'm still just trying to understand the disease. Yes, honestly, I did feel abandoned. I did visualize this great long distance relationship once I started classes at a university I wanted to go to. I was just confused (and still am a little confused) on how...

Again...I'm not upset that she didn't talk to me or wanted space. I am upset because I merely wanted to know if she harmed herself and physically okay.